You all helped so much

You have really helped me out - I spent a great deal of last night just really teary... after my post - so much poor me... but I spoke with the psychologist here at the health center today & he agreed I was depressed - that the stress of the job situation, change in body/lifestyle - which he said that type of change is BOUND to bring with it unique issues - getting over my old self image, recognizing how wonderful I am - dealing with new behaviors for old demons - like eating when I'm alone, stressed, sad, anxious etc. etc... He added lexapro to my medications... (well had our on-staff doc do it - he can't write script) said it should help elevate me a bit... which he said would help with a little clarity - then said he was going to cancel the Zanax after the Lexapro has time to kick in. Suggested meeting with the nutrtionist & I got in to see her today - she gave me a nice list of protein sources (I'm gonna try tofu & see if I can tolerate that) - said she'd be happy to meet with me on a weekly basis if it would help while I get myself stable - also suggested some good iron & B-vitamin sources - I went for a walk & then put together my resume - talked to a couple of my co-workers & boosted my self-esteem a little - seems as though my peers feel I've been a strong asset to the comapany... nice to hear. Ate yogurt for breakfast - did okay - and a salisbury steak & mashed potato lean cuisine-type lunch... Scale showed a 3-pound loss from two days ago - so that was good also.... Anyways - it's a one-day at a time type of thing isn't it? I had huge expectations that weight loss surgery would solve all of my problems - well it hasn't but.... today that the sky has cleared & all of you wrote such wonderful loving things - I have been able to acknowledge that I am so much better off than I was & well - I am going to try buffalo wings for breakfast one morning & see how that goes & I am going to love myself a little better - I will find a job - I believe.... Stop beating myself up... and enjoy the FACT that I can fit into a 20 from a 28 - that I caqn cross my legs - that my rings all fit - or are tooo loose & that my family says "wow" you look GREAT! Thank you - every one of you - for endulging me yesterday - I really needed the mental release & for encouraging me on - I followed through on as much of the advice as I could today & will be looking for a support group. Many Many blessings.

Pamela, I'm sooo glad that you're feeling better! I'm so impressed that you took how you were feeling and the advise that you got and moved on it so quickly. That shows how dedicated you are to keeping yourself healthy and happy - like I said yesterday - You're worth it! You really are doing great. The lexapro will help too - even if you don't take it forever, it will help to get you out of the funk you're in now. Keep up the wonderful job and you can e-mail me anytime that you want - I'm always here to listen and give unwanted or unasked for advise Debbie [email protected]