I hate this!!!!

Hello all, I must say I am most depressed!!! I had my first surgery on 11/2/04. I had lap rny. Then I had another surgery on 11/5/04 to put a catheter in the bypassed part of my stomach because it was not draining like the doc wanted. I was in the hospital for 7 days. Then I started having a problem with taking in my liquids and my pureed food, everything I try to eat got stuck in my throat, I would vomit it back up, or it would just sit in my throat for about 10 or 15 minutes before it whosed down. I told my doc about this and yesterday I had endiscopy sonogram procedure done, which was the most horrible and painful exsperience I have ever gone through. The doc said my throat had closed up to the size of the point on a ballpoint pen, which was probably why I was having difficulty. So, so far this wls exsperience has not been good for me. I am week in pain alot and I feel like I am starving to death, I don't know what to try to eat. I am actually afarid to eat or take my vitamins due to past problems, but I am so miserable and so hungry. All I do is cry and sleep, so far I have lost 30 pounds but I don't care do to my depression. Friends or family cannot understand what I am going through, a part of me is telling me maybe I was better off staying the way I was. Please help, suggestions, words of encouragment anything is needed right now, I am so miserable. Stacy

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Stacy}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I wish I knew what to tell you to make it all better. It is quite possible you are going through a state of depression right now, especially considering the complications you have had. Contact your surgeon or PCP, they may be able to put you on something. As for eating, what has your doc suggested? I know you are scared, so I would stick with liquid, pureed foods. Soups, yogurt, things like that should help you out. Also as far as viatmins, my doc says we can have 2 childrens chewable vitamins so maybe take those so you are still getting the vitamins and make sure you chew them up real good. Let me know how you make out. Janet

I'm sorry that you're going through this. I wish I had some good advice, but I don't. Just try to focus on what you can do in the future and not what you could have done it the past. As far as the vitamins I found centrum chewables at a super walmart that is really good. I tried the kids vitamins but they were gross!

I am so sorry you are feeling this way!! I pray it all starts looking up for you soon. I would talk to your PCP about getting on some anti depressents. You have been through so much and the hormone imbalance after surgery is not a good mix!! I am glad your throat issue is now fixed. I would stick with liquids for a few days. I bet warm broth would be good to sooth that tummy!! Good luck and prayers are being sent your way!! Erica

Stacy, Everyday is a new day and remember it takes time to change. I know that a month from now you will be feeling so much better. Everyday things are getting better and better. Robin

my name is cynde and I am 13 days pre-op. I know this must be a heart breaking experience at this time. I have also had alot of previous medical issues. It is very difficult to not get into a routine of feeling as if you caused this. try to remember that somethings are out of our control and the only control we have is how we deal with the things we are experincing!! You are a brave and reseilent person or you would be the type who never ventured to have surgery to make life better. Try to keep your goal of a healthier life in front of you and you faith. I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts. You are an exceptional person to be brave enough to fight. keep it up.

Hello Stacy, Be encouraged. Nothing really good for us ever comes without a sacrifice. I am 1 month post op and I experienced (and still do) a sense of loneliness and a concern about failure. I realize it comes with getting to where I want to be, so I keep going. My problems don't match your problems, but we are all in this together. With every obstacle in this journey, just look for your alternates. If food won't go down, do stick to the liquids and soft foods. Get that protein in...and wait for your doctor to guide you further. Just don't give up sweetie... When it gets bad, I think crying is cleansing. Once you cried a bit, do try to pick yourself up and move. Do something... I was feeling extreme loneliness just the other day. It was overwhelming to the point that my head began to hurt. I got up and went to the gym and did 30 minutes on the treadmill. Felt much better when I returned home. Say a prayer as you move about (ask for peace of mind and remember to give thanks for the simple things in the midst of the dark cloud of depression). If you believe and got that faith base, trust me it makes things feel lighter and motivates you to do something. (I used that during my separation/divorce year over 7 years ago.) I wish you good health and many more blessings. Just remember "this too shall pass". Veronica