Pre op jitters and crying...
This morning someone was asking me about a special meal we do (raclette... melted cheese and potatoes) and I said, without thinking, you'll have to come over sometime and we'll make one.... and then I got a lump in my throat and my eyes welled up and I said, "but I guess I won't be eating it..."
Sheesh - we have that meal only about twice a year, and it's just potatoes and cheese, and I'm killing myself with this weight... I want this operation! So is this going to happen to me a lot? Crying about foods that I THINK I am going to miss?
Luckily I see the psy tomorrow morning. And then there are only two days until my op - Friday is the day.
I think I just have to hold on to the rollar coaster wagon now and let it guide me on the tracks - I've left the station, no turning back now AND I don't want too!!!
Anne,
I know what you're going through this week. I too, am having pre-op jitters. My surgery is Thursday, and it is not just the surgery I am nervous about, but missing foods. I did not go into this blind, and knew what I would have to do (give up certain foods), but boy oh boy, it has racked my nervous system! It's like giving up a best friend! It's a good thing there are many support groups out there.
Pam
Hang in there guys - we will make it - just re-read your fav profiles of the big losers who have left the food behind!!!
I have paused during the past few days to think about what my life will be like when I am struggling to down even a few measly bites - I think I am not sad but there is defintely a sense of emptiness or loss - I just hope that soon I will have enough energy that I will be so busy I will be thankful that I don't have to eat big meals!!! Good luck - dawn
You'll still be able to have most of your favorite foods, just in moderation. I'm 3 weeks post-op & just finished lunch - grilled chicken w/ BBQ sauce & cheese for protien. Sure, it's not the best lunch in the world, but in moderation, it's fine. We don't always have to chug down protein shakes. : )
Keep in mind the decision you made to have the surgery. This Friday will be a new beginning for you. You'll have cravings next week, but they'll pass. Keep thinking positive & your recovery will go that much smoother.
Anne,
I too had jitters but not for food but for my life. I have two little boys and 5 days before surgery the waterworks started. I'm 12 days post op and now I feel like you. I cook dinner for the family and some days it doesn't bother to watch them eat. Then other days I leave the room. I can't grasp that I may never be able to eat something (other than a nibble) On the otherhand I already lost close to twenty lbs and feel great. In the past it took me half a year to lose 10 lbs! So here I sit weighing the pros and cons A LONG HEALTHLY ACTIVE LIFE vs A MOMENTS HAPPINESS EATING SOMETHING YUMMMY. I know I did the right thing but I still know I made a huge decision and altered my eating habits for ever. I told my DH that I think I'll be shopping more with friends than going out to eat. I think I'm mourning food! Good LUck to you!! I can't wait until I can start working out (week 4 or 5) I think it will make me feel better. (endorphines)
Smiles,
Summer