up and down!!

Hello! I havent been on the computer in a while..I am wondering if anyone of you are going through up and down period. I still feel fat. and alot of the time I dont feel good about myself. even after 80lbs lost. I feel fatter now than ever..does this make any sence?? I know that I am smaller because of my clothes size. but when I was fatter I seem to use more make-up and primp more..I am having trouble with my self image. what is the deal?? I recently was put on wellburtuin and I guess I will just have to wait and see how that works for me.. also I am smoking like a train..my sister says I have replaced food with smokes.. but that is the one thing I enjoy!! thanks for listening to me bable.. lisa