2.5 weeks - getting nervous

OK, I don't post often and feel stupid for getting nervous now. This is what I have been researching for the last year and actively pursuing for the last 6 months. I have read all the statistics and know that I could die, but statistically no more of a risk than any other surgery I have had. Why am I suddenly starting to worry that everything will go wrong? Am I being selfish for taking this risk when my family needs me. I am "only" 120 lbs overweight with no life threatening co morbids yet. Is it better to take a chance like this or just live whatever time I have left as obese knowing that I will probably die earlier than I should but at least my kids will be raised? Forgive my rantings -- I just need to "say" it in a safe place. If I even tried to talk like this to my husband or mother, they would right away say that I should not do it if I feel that way. They aren't crazy about this to begin with. I have to get through the next 2.5 weeks. It's a good thing that the calendar is full of things going on for the next few weeks.

Kim, much better to do the surgery now with NO comorbidites to deal with. Try to keep really busy, I know I am. Wishing you the best. I think the "nerves" are pretty normal this close to surgery. Mary

Hey Kim ~ Don't worry yourself too much, I'm pretty sure what your feeling is the norm... I've battled it too... I actually had my 1st dream about the surgery last night! I was surprised, it was a good dream! I want for my pre-admission testing and they told me come on, there was a cancellation lets get this done now!! And everything went well... Of course I woke up thinking I really need to get a hobby!! hahaha But honestly, this has been my "hobby" for quite a while, like you researching and spending day in and out filling myself with as much info as possible!! Nov 24 th will be a good day girl!! Smile, we both will be on our way to the "loser" side at the same time!! ~ Take Care ~ Jessica