OH Michelle I so wished we lived closer. I would just LOVE to give you a big squishy * smoosh the life right out of ya* hug right now. You really are doing so well. I mean can you believe you are 189lbs lighter in this short a period of time!!! Did you ever think you would be just 4 small pounds of weighing in the 200's again? You will MAKE IT!! I will never leave you behind!! No matter what I will still be here when you announce to the board not only that you are in the 200's but you are in the 100's and then I will again be here for you when you announce GOAL!!!!!!!!! We will be hear for each other. I have been where you are and you WILL BE where I am. We have to stick together on this board. EVERYONE needs to. Its important that we all make it to the goal line. And it takes ALL of us to get to that line. The ones that are there need us to help them get there and now we need them to help US get there. Chin up sweet pea. YOU ARE AWESOME!!! *huggles and much love* Felicia =0)

"I get a tinge of regret when I see everyone reaching goal, or close to it." I will take this one step further and say that when I see people reaching goal or close to it I am totally jealous. It says to me "See Felicia! IF you had not gained SO MUCH you would already be done and over with this journey, but NOOOOOOOOOO you just had to become H U G E! Way to go smarty pants." *sigh* Its not that I am not super happy for everyone that made it or is making it. Its just selfish I guess. I want to make it to. AND I still want the people I saw make it to goal to be there when I make it to goal. Make sense? LOL Probably not as I tend to wander *sigh* I DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO know what you mean about not being sure what comes next and being scared. Now that I am almost out of the 220's I find myself almost stepping back from losing weight. Not exactly sabbatogging myself but its hard to explain. Like what am I going to do when I get thin? I used to say all the time "I cant wait till I get back too.. yada yada weight at yada yada time in the past". Now I find that I am not sure where I am going. And that where I was, was not in a place of truth. Long story I guess. Its hard to put into text. But I do understand. Now that I am getting to weights I remember, well I am not sure about who I am. And to be honest the thing that has thrown me the most lately is that I thought "once I get thinner, once I get *back* down to a weight" that my self confidence and energy would just come back ten fold and what I have found is that neither did. Ok ramble ramble ramble LOL Didn't think you would be posting and playing therapist all in the same week did ya LOLOLOLOL. *hugs* I am so very happy to see you posting now on the board. Stick around ok!! Felicia =0)

Amy you already made it!! Its not the number that makes you a success its the happiness that you are finding now! Yes I know we all want to get to "that number" but LOOK how far you have come!!! You are doing great!!! PLEASE don't ever feel that by posting my may look stupid. There is just no possibility of that. We are family. We are here for each other. We are not here to just listen to perfection ok! Its the ups and downs and quirks that make us all WLS sisters. We of all people will understand no matter what is written!! Besides lol we all have our stupid moments. Its learning from them that makes us better people. Shake off that fear and jump in with both feet ok!!!! *HUGS n much love* Felicia =0)

I haven't not been exercizing as I should. I still walk alo around my office building not to mention working 14 hours days. My last driver's ed class is tonight so I am hoping to start back to getting some more focused exercize.

BUT I DIDN'T!!! We were supposed to go to Geauga Lake in Aurora, OH this past weekend with the kids and our friends. We drove up on Saturday and got a room for the night, so we would only have a 10 minute drive to the park in the morning and we could spend more time there. I was watching the forecast all week and it wasn't looking good for Sunday. When we woke up in our hotel room on Sunday it was POURING DOWN RAIN!!! The weather showed lots and lots of rain going through that day. We didn't even drive over to the park. We went outlet shopping then headed home. Spent more $$$ shopping than we would have at the park. LOL. I was so disappointed. I was really looking forward to trying out the roller coasters and the waterslides. I may have to wait until next summer now. Boo Hoo, Tabby