I am disgusted

I need to vent! As you all know I have hurt my back and was off of work for 3 weeks. In the 3 weeks I made poor food choices and have gained 5 pounds. I went back to work last week because I had to and also because I was feeling better. Well, I have had a total relapse! I couldn't walk, get off the couch or anything over the weekend. My husband had to pick me up several times since I couldn't get up myself. I went to the doctors yesterday and he basically told me I went back to work too soon and I aggravated everything. I am now dealing with sciatica on top of it all. I cannot stand up straight, I walk like I'm 80 years old, and from walking bent over and having to look up all the time, I have a knot in my neck the size of a basketball!!!! I am back on prednisone which makes me eat like pac man! What if I continue to gain? I am so stressed out! When is it going to end????? I am so disgusted! I need to get back exercising and I physically cannot do it! Thanks for listening! Allison

OH, Allison...I'm so sorry that you are in so much pain and have aggavated things by going back to work too soon. I know this can't be an easy time for you. It sucks that you are on prednisone, too. I know my sister battles her weight when she is on it. I don't know what to tell you, other than try to snack on protein, when you are eating. Try to keep some beef jerky or soy crisps, grab some cheese and turkey breast slices. Try to make good food choices or drink some protein shakes to fill up and WATER...WATER...WATER...I know that makes you have to pee more, which is hard when you are in too much pain to get off the couch. It just sucks that you are going through this right now. Please take care and listen to your dr. Hugs, Tabby

Thank you for your kind words and advice. I am increasing my water and I bought lots of cheese and other "good" items. I actually ordered protein last night. I really have never found one that I like so I ordered New Whey, chocolate, and Nectar...lemon tea. I hope I like them because I am so sick of spending the money for protein and not liking it. Then, I end up throwing it away! Allison

I am so sorry Allison!!! I am sure it totally sucks.. I am sure that when you were home and in pain eating made you feel better huh?? I bet I would be the same way. I cant exercise that hard. I have super bad knees. Already had surgery on one and is going through this shot routine right now to see if it will help the other.. They are injecting this stuff (3 shots a visit for 3 weeks) the Doc explained it is like WD40 for the screen door hinge. I got it when he explained it like that hee heee. I wonder if they can do anything like that for you? If you want me to find out the name of it let me know. I am here for you October Sister. hang in there! Luvs and Hugs! Tiff

Hi Tiffiny it would be greatly appreciated if when you get the name of the injection the dr is giving you for your leg to pass the name of it onto me. i did not have knee problems when i was heavier, strangely enough it is coming out now! must be the old age on my side

Thank you for the kind words Tiff. It did make me feel better to eat at the time but now I am kicking myself in the butt for allowing myself to fall back into the trap. I have cleared out the closets and restocked with healthier choices. No more chocolate licorice!!! LOL My doctor has given me a cortisone injection. I am starting to move around a little better every day. Allison

OMGOSH Allison I am so sorry to hear you are not only still hurting but having a rough time of it right now. You wont keep gaining. Now that you recognize it. You can do this. You can make good choices and you will get through this tough time I just know it. I say you are SOOOOOOO due for a day at the spa!! Sending BIG HUGS your way!!! *huggles* Felicia =0)

I agree with you 100%, I need a day at the spa. I am trying so hard to make good food choices again. I posted above that I have made a clean sweep of the closet and filled it back up with healthier choices. I am so sick of being sick! I have been watching EVERYTHING I eat and I step on the scale to see it go up a pound. It is so heartbreaking and very discouraging. Hopefully, things will turn around and the rain cloud that is over my head will leave! I need to see a brighter day! This is going on WAY tooooooo long! Thanks for your kind words and support Allison

Hey maybe a massage would help your back out? Ya never know and gosh you would just have to go to the spa to find out right?? LOL I am so sorry you are so down. Consider a huge {{{HUG}}} coming your way ( ok but gently.) Bright side is coming!! I just know you will be better soon. *huggles* Felicia =0)

Allison, I so feel for you. Sciatica is horrible and became a part of my life back around 1996, I believe it was. And, as an asthmatic, I've done prednisone too and know what that's like. I haven't had problems with either since surgery, but know that I still could. My younger brother has always been very fit and athletic, but he still gets sciatic attacks that leave him virutally crippled as well. Hang in there and DON'T beat yourself up over this. It's temporary and you WILL feel better again and get it back together. Don't let the emotional upset add to the physical problem, as that will make it even more difficult to heal. Try to relax, take deep breathes, and allow your body to heal. Be gentle with yourself. Big hugs for you. Lisa