What is happening...
wanted to see how everyone is doing? I am doing better things are going to get rough for awhile but I will survive. I have shut the company down, could possibly have to file bankruptcy, hate that, but you gotta do what you gotta do. I am getting a divorce and moving out in two weeks. You know there are so many changes with this surgery and you look at life so much differently. I will have to say it is not a bad thing at least not for me. I just want to be happy not saying that my life was miserable just not all it can be.
I feel like life has passed me by to many times...you find out your hubby of 4 years came into a relationship and a marriage and never let go of a previous relationship, he didn't find you attractive but now you are his ideal women. So in the mean time you get pushed away and made to feel less of a woman and a person. So you pick yourself up and carry forward and make the life you always wanted just happens to be without him. Yet everything is blamed on this surgery...I never ever regret doing the surgery and never will. I was told last night that I am unhappy now and that I used to be happy...if I was unhappy then -then he liked me better unhappy. I know I am going on and on but I know you guys know where I am coming from....
I told him that when we meet I lost my grandmother a month later and then a year later I loose my mother both women were my support my rock and I lost that. I weighed 226 when we meet and over the course of 3 years ballooned up to 267 but I was happy then. NOT!!! I was depressed very depressed!!! and he liked me that way!! What the HELL!! So now I have came out of depression finding the happiness and as much as it hurts it just isn't with him.
He says I am consumed with my weight now...I guess I am! I sure the HELL don't want to gain back the weight. When I went for my 9 month check up the DR said I was 4 lbs from where they want me and I am 25 lbs were I want to be. I am NORMAL now!!! YEE HAW!!
Life is becoming better!! I pray and hope each one of you are having just that a better and more enjoyed life!! I need to be taken off the card list until I get settled and then i will update my address on here and get started with you guys again.
Lots of love and hugs,
Hi Angela!
Hmmm...how to put it. I'm sorry things worked out the way they did....but I'm happy for you as you seem to know what you want out of life and you are going out to get it. Keep us updated on how you are and where you are!!
Life here is good. Hubby comes home today from his time overseas. Can't wait to see him. House is still on the market, but has a serious prospect and is being shown again this afternoon to another prospective buyer, so I'm hoping and praying it sells soon so we can go with hubby to VA instead of being stuck here in a house that hasn't sold. Trying to decide how much more weight I really NEED to lose. I'm thinking I want to get down to 140 and then pursue plastics - at least for the tummy and maybe the "girls" too. Will have to wait and see what the insurance says becuase I'm only doing what they will pay to have done!! Oh...to get to the 140, I need to lose 6 more pounds. I can't believe I'm *this close* to being at goal. MERCY!!
Take care of yourself!! BIG HUGS!!
Susan 
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