UPDATE

Hi and thankyou all again!!! I saw the hand dr today and he said he didn't think I would need surgery on my finger. I had to go get a different type of splint put on it and it feels better now. I do go back to see the dr on the 24th of April and see how it is healing. He will then know if I need surgery or not I guess. He did say that I will need therapy on it. It is really swollen and black and blue as do the rest of my bruises. I am still having a hard time dealing with Spikes violent death and would like to go to therapy for those that have lost pets. I tried to find one online here but I couldn't find any. Maybe I am not looking in the right place?? Any help would be appreciated!! I did go to work yesterday and that helped some but I sure can't do much because I can't write with my left hand!! Haven't heard from animal control yet so I will call them tomorrow. I hope they make her put her dog down and if she refuses we will go to court on it. Some say for me to get another dog now but I just can't. I need to heal from this ugly thing I did to my poor dog before I get another one. Yes I am to blame because if I didn't take him for a walk he would still be alive today. All I can see is that dog shaking the life out of him and his eye hanging out and the blood................... Oh God I hate myself!!! I can't stand to see myself smile at all anymore!!!! Love and hugs to all of you

Oh, Judy...I am so sorry that you are going through this. It is so unfair. Please don't blame yourself for what happened to Spike. You had no idea of what was going to happen. It was a freak thing that happened that you had no control over. I'm sure that you had gone through the same routine several times before. I hope that you are able to get some support and get past this. I can imagine how hard this must be for you after what you had seen. I did a search on ivillage and came up with http://messageboards.ivillage.com/iv-ptbereavemen?ice=ivl,searchmb&redirCnt=1 a pet bereavement message board. Perhaps they can help you get through this. I'm glad to hear that you don't need surgery on your finger. Hopefully the new splint helps and you are able to get use of your right hand again. Please take care!!! Hugs, Tabby

*big hugs to you* Judy, I'm so sorry you are having to deal with this. Please let go of the guilt and forgive yourself. Taking your puppy for a walk is a good thing to do. Doggies need exercise just like people. I know this was a horrible thing that happened....but it was NOT your fault! It was the fault of those people who have a savage animal that attacked you guys!! Know I love you and care about you. I'm so glad your finger will be okay and will not need surgery. I hope you are able to find some peace about this. Please go for some counselling and visit the pet board that was posted. Susan