I have come to the conclusion.....

that I HATE cleaning house!!!! I seriously LOVE having a clean house, dishes done, laundry clean and put away...and everything smelling nice and wonderful. I just seriously despise what it takes to get it that way! Okay....not really. But, I'm just really TIRED right now. Probably due to the pace I've been going at cleaning everything and chasing dust specks before they hit the furniture... I've spent WAY too much time at the computer today instead of doing the things I need to do. Don't even have 3/4 of my list completed for today...and don't really care! It looks good enough now that the dh and kids won't know I didn't finish my list....it's just my own guilt I'll have to deal with. Sad, but true. Plus, I do not want to sell my house and move. It's really killing me that we are having to do this. When we bought, we planned to stay here at least till the kids got thru school. Then the all knowing (VERY sarcastic) BRAC committee decided to close our base and now we have to go. This was the house I've always wanted....well, with one more bedroom and a slightly bigger back yard. But, it was close enough, ya know? Now I have to say goodbye to it, all my friends and everything I've known since 1995 now. It's unusual for a military family to stay in one place as long as we have. For that I should be thankful. But, then again, that makes it even harder to move. We have friends, the kids have really close friends, we have roots here....I don't want to leave them. I feel like I'll be leaving part of myself in TX...Guess that's why I don't want to do what needs to be done....Normally, I like to clean... Oh well...just had to share my frustration. I need a hobby...other than cleaning, that is!! Susan

Hi Susan , Well we all go thru some changes after surgery i have been having some good and some bad , but you just have to hang in there everything will go back to normal believe me i been thru hell, Love Maria

Thanks Maria... Susan

Susan, I'm so sorry to hear your house is going to be in turmoil now. How terrible for you and your family that the military has decided to close your base after so many years. Having to say good bye is never easy but when you've had friends and establised yourself in the community for 12 years is devistating. Do you have any idea where you'll be going? You May be leaving texas but texas will always be a part of you. I feel your frustration and hope they find a great new place for you to be based. Donna, sfy

Thanks Donna. You hit the nail on the head. TX will always be a part of me. But leaving here, my home, etc., will be extremely difficult. And, part of that difficulty is right now we don't know where we will be going and hubby is scheduled to leave the ship in JULY!! That's only 4 months away. We've never been this close to moving and not known where we were going. Very frustrating. Very unsettling. And, I'm a control freak!! I need to know the answers....and right now I don't know a single one.... Can you tell I'm getting frantic over here? I think I need to go clean something.... Stress relief... Susan

Susan~~ Sorry that your life is going like this and you have to move and they closed the base after living there so long and your family being there for so long. I wished I had some answers for you but I am here for support. Can you ask to move to Iowa to be closer to me??? Hugs~~ Deanne

Hmmm....do you have any Navy bases in Iowa??? Actually, we are hoping to get to move to TN to a Naval Air Station there. It will be lots closer to my parents, which is really important to me as they are getting older (both will turn 78 this year). Wish us luck!! We've been holding out for these orders and now we are afraid we have held out too long and will have to take crappy orders for somewhere we don't want to go.... Okay...going to stop stressing. Stomach is cramping and I am wanting to eat. I seriously need a hobby...or a distraction of some sort... Susan

I do not know about any Navy bases in Iowa. That would be nice to live closer to your parents. I think you do need to stop stressing and things will work out. I am a firm believer in that one. You know I wish you all the luck in the world!! It is not going to help stress about things you can not change and lose your overall goodness of yourself on this and cause you health troubles. I am here when you need me. Hugs~~ Deanne

Thanks Deanne. I am trying to not stress over it. Most days I do okay...but today it's kicking my rear for some reason. We've known for a year that we would be moving and since November he's been up for orders...we just don't have any yet....very frustrating... But, I will move on. When I get in these moods, I allow myself a certain amount of time to wallow in it...and then I get up and move on. Tomorrow I should be my usual perky self again. Better be anyway!!! Susan

NO NO NO to Iowa she has to move closer to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I am allllllll by lonesome up here so its only fair she moves my way *grin*. *HUGS* I am so sorry for what you are having to go through. I cant even imagine having to move after all that time. Whisper in the powers that be's ears "Anywhere near Montana" LOLOL *huggles* Felicia =0)