Update on me...Long

Hi everyone, I am sorry I have been gone but I want to explain why or I guess let everyone know why. The last I really posted I was going for a mammogram after my trip to the Dr. and finding out I had strep. I did go for my mammogram and while waiting for the results I got an even bigger surprise. OK lets put this all together. Not feeling great....extra tired....boobs hurt. Well the thought crossed my mind but after my trip to my wonderful (NOT) PCP and he assuring me it was not a possibility I dismissed my suspicions. Well on the advice of a friend I made a trip to the drug store next to the gym after working out and last Wed morning my suspicions were confirmed. The test said PREGNANT! Well since I was on birth control and have been for 10 years I was soooooo in shock. Not only is it not supposed to happen but it is WAY to soon. Well I made an apt with the OB and he confirmed everything. Well to make a very long story short after an exciting weekend and it sinking in early Tues. morning (2 am) I realized I was bleeding. After a night in the ER we learned that I had miscarried. They say that it was not related to the surgery. My labs from the OB were great and he said that I was in better health than half the woman who come into his office. From what I understand when this happens early like this there is something that was terminally wrong with the baby and our bodies know that it can not continue successfully. I am hurt and upset but at the same time know that it was not our time for this. We will try again but not until I am at goal. We always knew we wanted kids...I have never wanted to be anything but a Mom from the time I was little....but we never knew how much till we thought it was happening. On a happy note we now know that everything in my body is working the way that it is supposed to. We had always thought that it would be very difficult for me to get pregnant but now we know it can happen. Funny they do not tell you about all the people getting pregnant on B****il it happens to you. The nurse in the surgeons office had twins...the receptionist in the OB's office had one and then twins. Be for-warned that since this has happened we have been told that BC is not as reliable as you may think. Especially since the surgery sends out bodies into a major hormone change. TRUST ME!!! But all in all we are doing ok. Positive things come out of everything. Hubby and I have neevr bonded so much as we have in the last week. He is home with me today and going out to buy me a new kitten. Well to the shelter that is. I have asked for one before and now he says it is time. Thank you to everyone for your kind words, prayers and messages to me. Sorry I have not gotten back to each of you individually it has just been a hard 2 weeks. Oh and by the way my PCP STILL has never called me back with the results. If I had not called and gotten them myself I would still be waiting in angst. Again thanks you to everyone! Hugs and luv, Melissa

*big hugs* Felicia =0)

Thanks big sis! *hugs* back atcha! Melissa

{{{melissa}}} You have been through a lot huh? Im sorry for loss. I know they say everything happens for a reason, and I have learned to accept that. I wll keep you in my prayers. I am not on the baord much becaus eIm still dealing with a few things myself, but hope to get more involved. Will be waiting to hear how things are going! Shannon

Melissa~~ Big hugs going out to you and Hubby. I am glad that you and hubby have bonded more than you have ever before. It will happen for you when God wants it to and you are ready. Thinking of you and sending prayers your way. Big Hugs~~ Deanne

Thank you! Prayers are coming your way as well. I know you will pull through! I am a true believer that everythign happens for a reason. I know that when HE is ready for us to be parents then it will happen. Hugs, Melissa

Thank you for your prayers. They are much appreciated. I am sending prayers your way as well that you come thorugh what you are dealing with. We are all here for you when you need us! Hugs, Melissa

You are so right things happen for a reason and I am a true believer in this as well. When it is right He will decide it and you will make great parents. Hugs~~ Deanne

Melissa I am so sorry for what you have gone through. My heart aches for both of you. Stay strong and know that good things will soon come your way. Much love! Michelle

Thank you Michelle. We are staying strong and keeping faith. Thank you for the love! Hugs, Melissa