What a night..

Well, as earlier in the week I told you about the little problem I was having with going out and my hubby not wanting to go well...it became a issue today. To make a long story straight nothing major happened, but he finally admitted that he was having a little bit of a hard time with my weight loss. He thinks it is a great thing just seeing the physical changes and some other changes is making him feel uneasy. I told him that I love him and he is the only man I want. After hours of crying by me of course, I told him that I had lost myself before and I can not do that again. I don't want to loose him and that I love him more than words can describe but for so long over 20 years I have not been fair to myself or even good to myself. I am afraid that if I don't take care of myself and be happy then how can I make others happy. I wasn't expected all this to happen this quickly with either of us but I eventually knew something would happen. There is so much to this whole issue from both sides and lord knows I am not completely innocent but I honestly feel I haven't changed and what has changed I have come out of a 2 year depression that I entered after I lost my best friend which was also my mother. We were so close and there is not a day that goes by that I don't miss her, in fact just writing this makes me teary eyed. Before that I was always going and doing. I am hoping that everything works out and I will try my hardest to make this work and will never give up. Now on the night out..it was fun we all had a great time and there was such a sweet 23 year old young man that asked me to dance and was so sweet. He paid me alot of compliments and really made me feel good about myself and nothing to be considered out of the way. It was kinda of cool since I surely didn't considered myself the prettiest out of the group and he was totally interested in me and when we first got there the girls were grabbing me saying look at the young'in, isn't he a cutie, you know how you get with your girlfriends and me being me just kinda me said a few things and never paid attention further to him until he ended up at the table behind us and started talking to me. Was a real gentleman....ole country boy with good manners and you don't find that much anymore. The funny thing was I was envied by a few. It was fun.. I also had my first few sips of alcohol and it was very very very small sips but didn't bother me. I still have no desire to drink though. Anyway..thanks guys for listen or reading my little spill..Have a great week. Hugs, GO COLTS!!

Big hugs to you Angela. I hope everything works out with you and your hubby. Sounds like he has some insecurities. Have the two of you considered counselling? It might help to have a third party involved to help you identify the problems and give you ways to resolve conflicts - before they become major conflicts. Wishing you the BEST! Susan

HUGS to you Angela!!! I hope that since you talked about this with your hubby that you can continue to work through it and get all the insecurities and issues out of the way. Hugs~~ Deanne