Just the BEST mood....
Ya know one of the things I noticed lately is that I am just in the BEST mood. Birds are singing, sun is shining, life is just good. Its been a LONG TIME since I could answer my husbands every day question of "so how is your day going" with just great! Or its been wonderful. etc... Don't get me wrong there is always a blue moment, bills show up in the mail, toilet stops up, lol you know the norm but its like Eh who cares it will all work out lol. Thats the kind of day I am having so far today. The moods are so much different when you can SEE your way out of the dark tunnel of heck that you have been trapped in under all the layers of fat and emotional baggage that goes along with it. I used to sit here and watch the bunnies go bounding by and instead of seeing how cute and wonderful they are all I could see is that man must be nice ( in my best sarcastic life sucks voice). Now its like aweeeeeeeeeeee aren't they just cute!!!! Watch out bunnies I will be out there next spring bounding around with you! I can see the future now. Its calling to me and I am listening and answering back with a firm and confident I AM COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There are few days now that I don't want to get up cuz "why bother". There are few days now that I tell Joshua "not now mommy is tired". There are few days or moments that there is anything of a mental or physical downer that keeps me from doing what I want to do. I do still have a few hurdles. I am still to big to fit. So I am working on the mental and physical part of that. There are still the moments when I look at the scale and swear. There are still the moments I look in the mirror and go EW. BUT they are no longer a daily happenings. They are no longer powerful enough to persuade me to not function in my day. I will be normal. I will be out there living life. I will be who I used to be only better!! Most of all. I will be happy with me again and with that I will become a functioning member of my family again. There will be fewer and fewer "I don't want to goes". There will be fewer and fewer excuses and reason and cons. There will be more and more "sure why nots!" Life is good. Life is really good. Best of all I will make my goal of turning 35 in March and NOT being as fat as I was when I was 34. I have to renew my license. It will be what ever weight I am at that time in straight faced honesty for I will know that if anyone EVER looks at what ever weight I have on there I will from that moment all always be LIGHTER then what it says on my drivers license lolol. I will turn 35 being more healthy than I have been in over 8 years and more happy then I have been in 10 years.
Here's to just being in the BEST mood ever!
Thanks for reading my jibber jabber lol.
*huggles*
Felicia =)
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