I am a dork.. But...(Mushy moment)

I'm looking forward to the card exchange too!! Since I come from a town where there aren't too many who have had wls (and those that did, tend to hide) I love getting to know all of you who understand ... well ... everything!! Yes, this will be good for all of us. ~Blessings~ Halona 313/268/150

I had surgery in a different city which made me a leper down here lol so I do not know to many people that have had it around here there fore I totally know how you feel. *huggles* Felicia =)

You are so not a dork. I think we have all had those moments. I still kinda felt that way Wed night as I had to go to my hubbys work Christmas party with him. If I could have I would have stayed home. I am great at talking to people and such but I was embarrassed that he had to be seen with me so I am right there with you. BUT in the end it was a very good thing I went. Kindof funny but it was getting ready for that that I realized that I am changing and it is all for the good and I am not going back to the way things were. As I tried on things to wear that night he had to keep telling me no that looks way to big. Sigh. All in all it was a good thing. My pants (the only ones I really had to wear) are really now too big and need to be put to rest) and the tops that I used to wear to stuff like that are just too big. Plus my knee highs fept falling down. UGH. What a night. Then there were these very thin plastic chairs to sit in and I was TERRIFIED! BUT it all went fine. OK enough about me YOU are an awesome person. Just wait until you get out into a great scarpbooking store and can find all the cute new stuff to find to create with. PLUS. You will start to find that gee wow I no longer have to turn sideways to get through stuff. I am already starting to see that a little so I know you have to be. Your pictures are great and it is very apparent at how well you are doing. Chin up and I am SOOOOOO glad that we can all be there to support each other. I too love this board and I can not wait to start sending cards out. What a great idea that YOU had. Remember that it was your idea and it was awesome. You have brought a smile to a lot of faces already. I am glad we are all helping you but you have to take credit that you are also helping US! Hugs back at ya! Melissa

Oh my you are good for my ego. I will be going to Dales company Christmas party next year but there is no way I would go this year. They have never seen me before and I do not want their 1st impression to be of me now lol. But next year WATCH OUT here I come!! I cant wait. He works for an awesome company. They have all kinds of parties and family days and stuff so I cant wait to start participating in that stuff. Next year is just jammed back with "going to do it" stuff. My biggest fear right now is that although I am feeling much better I am still so large I just don't fit most places. And the fear of embarrassing my husband or son ( not that they would ever be) is crippling. Once I can get some size off its completely different. I do go out to some local homeschool things but not many as I just don't fit. (Which is what mainly motivated me to have this surgery : my son ). But once I start to fit, hes going to wish I was not fitting cuz we are going to be out there going and going and going lolol. The last 5 years have really been bad. I am one of the freaks that gained 90% of her weight basically over night. I have been "over weight" since I got married" but I became super morbidly obese basically over night ( in less then a 1-2 year period) so it seemed like I went from functioning, out there human being to trapped in her body and her house freak over night. Anyways I am so looking forward to the life that is coming. *huggles* Thank you so much for your reply! Felicia =0)