Anniversary Day

Well, today is my 5 month anniversary. I am down 78 pounds & haven't measured yet, so not sure about my inches. At 5 months out, my emotions seem to be getting the best of me. I have been having several crying spells lately or maybe it's self pity spells? Don't get me wrong, I am very happy with my results thus far and very thankful that I was able to have this life-saving surgery! I have a wonderful husband that has been through the surgery & is like a 24 hour "technical support" person . I think sometimes that my mind just hasn't caught up with the rest of me. Does anyone else fill like this?? People are constantly complimenting me & telling me how wonderful I look. Maybe that's it, I don't know how to take a compliment, or maybe it's because I really never received any before, it's just overwhelming sometimes. One lady I work with who has talked to me about the surgery for herself, comes in every day & says she wants what I am wearing! She is so adament about it...it drives me insane! I had to pay for what I have on!! It's not easy keeping yourself in clothes when your body is changing so fast!! I finally told her that my old clothes were on Ebay so I could afford to buy new ones & that she was welcome to bid on them. That is so unlike me to be rude & it really hurt her feelings I know and she is so sweet . Another woman comes in everyday & in front of everyone says "OOOhhhh stand up, let's see what you have on, you look so sexy!" I want to scream "shut up, don't look at me!" I think I am going crazy sometimes! I know they mean well, or at least I hope they do! My hubby tells me how nice I look, but I never hear it from other relatives. I think I expect to hear something & they just ignore it like I haven't lost an ounce! Then I go feel sorry for myself some more. I try to stay upbeat & in a good mood, after all, everyone around me expects that I should feel better & happier, and I do...physically, it's just that the mental part is lagging behind. My hubby says it's a normal part of the process & that he went through it too. (How soon I forget, when it's me!) Thanks for letting me vent! Let me know if yall have experienced anything like this. We're all in the same boat here! Sorry to go on & on, but I had to get this out! Hugz to yall!! Gina L 260/182/160 26W/16W

Hi Gina....I have experienced everything you are experiencing you couldn't have said it better ... Don't worry you're not alone on this bumpy road.... Celia

Thansk celia! You don't know how much I needed to hear that!! Gina L

I HAVE BEEN FINDING THAT IT IS VERY HARD FOR ME TO STAY POSITIVE & HOPEFUL LATELY, WHICH I NORMALLY AM. I FOUND THIS ARTICLE ON ANOTHER BOARD, WHICH MAY HELP YOU, MS GINA. ~~ WHY ARE WE SOOOOOO EMOTIONAL? ~~ When it relates to the gastric bypass bariatric weight-loss patient, the "mood" is a very funny thing to measure since we find ourselves on incredible mood swings at times. Why is that? Why do we have such mood swings for about the first six months of our weight-loss journey? It's basically because fat cells harbor our hormones; and when we are shrinking away our fat cells, our hormones are affected tremendously, and often, they appear out of control. Some of us are better at coping with these drastic hormonal changes, and others certainly are challenged with disguising their mood swings.... I bet right now, you can identify a few situations where you didn't understand why you suddenly lashed out at someone, cried unexpectedly, or totally misunderstood something and took it offensively. You're confused as to why you have reacted in this fashion when it's not even in your character. If it normally isn't in your character to behave in such a manner, then you have to realize that your fat cells and hormones are on the roller coaster ride of their life and they too are confused! They've never before been subject to such sudden and dramatic changes because you've never lost so much weight so rapidly before in your entire dieting history.

Thanks Lady D. I read that the other day & to be honest it really makes sense & sure fits my situation! Hugz, Gina L

Hi Gina~ Everything that you are going through, I have been through and am still adjusting. At first, I though maybe I was going crazy or something was really wrong with me..but I've come to realize that my mind just hasn't caught up with things yet and the rapid weight loss is hard because everyone makes such a big deal about what you're wearing and being pretty much the center of attention (it's nice but still don't know how to take and accept it)I'm so glad that we are all here to support each other. I wish you continued success and just vent anytime Take care!!