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Santina, Thank you for the support and engouragement. willby

Honey I'm in the same boat! I've been naughty. I can't nor will I yell at you! I just promised myself to refocus beginning Jan. 1. I will say that I taste here and there and I don't overindulge and that's a blessing. We're in this thing together........................Keep your head up! Keke

Keke, Thank you for your encouragement! willby

Willby, I've been missing you. You have always made me laugh. Don't be sad. I'm not only a non-dumper, I can eat huge amounts and not get sick. I didn't eat all day and then inhaled a naked burrito from qdoba tonight. When I did the nutritional calculator at their website to figure out cals/fat/etc., it said the naked burrito was 17 oz! I ate 17 oz at one time. I still can't even believe it. I wasn't even really overly full after either. I had over 600 calories in 1 sitting. That used to be what I ate in a day. My only consolation is that since I hadn't eaten all day, I could eat that and a protein drink and still be under 1000 cals. I've eaten lots of stuff I shouldn't have, but only in small amounts. I couldn't really control Christmas with the in-laws and ended up eating about 1200 cals/day. You just have to accept it and move on. Yes this is a tool, but Willby, it's completely unrealistic to think that you will never eat anything thats bad for you ever again. And worse, if you try to deny yourself, you could end up "breaking" and bingeing. So go ahead and try the foods you want, but in small amounts. This is the rest of your life we're talking about here. Eating shouldn't make you miserable. And guilt will do worse things to you than a cookie every now and then. As for me, I'm going to try not to skip many meals anymore because it leads to unbearable hunger. At least I know I ate 17 oz of something healthy instead of the same amount in something unhealthy. It's great that you're getting in your protein and exercising. Focus on that and stop feeling bad about something that's now in the past and can not be changed. Please post more. We care about you here. Sheryl

Sheryl, (((((((BIG NON DUMPER HUG))))))))))) Thank you! I was ashamed to post my cheating......but everyone seems to understand. You are all so great! willby PS: and I swear I dont have chocolate in my mouth right now

Hang in there hon, you will get through this. Unfortunately I am on the opposite end of the spectrum. A lot of things I eat don't agree with me and some days I struggle to get in enough protein or even more than 600 calories. It gets a bit frustrating BUT I did have a piece of chocolate on Christmas eve that went down well, so I guess at least I know I can eat sweets. But on the plus side, I went for my 2 month check up yesterday and was down 52 lbs and they told me that everything I am going through is "normal" -- so at least we know we are "normal". By the way, you are doing great with your weight loss, so don't worry too much! HUGS, Vi

Vi, Thank you girlfriend for the support! Glad to hear we are normal......I had my doubts willby

I found out that nothing makes me dump either. It IS scarey. But, what makes me hang in there is that I can eat 3 bites of the cheesecake and be done. I had one bite of my niece's b-day cake. I made tons of Christmas cookies and ate one a day for 3-4 days. Last year I would have eaten all of them ALL day. I have this favorite receipe for chocolate/peanut butter rice krispies and I could eat a whole 9X13 pan of them in 2 days. I would eat nothing but that. The kids might get a small piece if they were lucky, hubby couldn't eat them because they gave him heartburn. I made them this year because all of my other family loves them. I barely had any. Not even what would total a whole piece in a week's time. But, I did gain 2 lbs. the week of Christmas. Could have something to do with that. Yesterday I had a bad day, I wanted to eat so much. I usually have frosted mini wheats for breakfast. I have 10 small squares. *I need the fiber*. But, yesterday for some reason, I could only eat half of them. Later, I reheated half of a filet mignon I had had for dinner the night before. For a snack I had 3/4 of a 1 oz slim jim. Then, for dinner I wanted a BLT. I ate half of it around 5 pm. At 8 pm I was in the kitchen just scoping things out and found - and ate - 2 starbursts. Hubby called me from work at 10 pm and I was about to go nuts because the other half of my sandwich was calling me from the fridge. He told me I should just eat it and so I did. I felt so guilty. A WHOLE sandwich... It seems so silly. Anyway, it seems like we are all in the same boat. Tomorrow, I will be following a sample diet that my docs office gave me. I'm going to try that for a few weeks and see how it goes. I am going to keep measuring everything. Exercise as much as I can. And of course, drink water and more water. That's all I can do. What's behind me is behind me now. Marcia

Marcia, I thought I was the only one with talking food in my house. My favorite pastime is scoping things out in my kitchen You think I would know to just keep my big ole' super morbidly obese a$$ out of there. Thanks for the support! willby

WOW!!! is all I have to say. I really thought there was something wrong with me. I don't dump either except on juice. I can eat cookies & chocolate etc. I don't get full on those things. If I eat a regular meal I get full though. Isn't that weird??? I have actually prayed that something like chocolate or something would make me dump just so I would have a reason not to eat it. Crazzy. Thank you so much for posting. I'm not sure I would have had the guts to put that out there. I truely thought I was the only one that could eat more than 3 tbsp. of mashed green beans or something like that. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!