I started this process in...
I started this process in January. Nine months later I am going in for surgery Tuesday morning. When the call came in that I was approved I felt like a heavy weight was taken off my shoulders. I am so ready for this operation, mentally, physically and emotionally. As Tom said, there are so many mountains and valleys to this whole process. Now at least I am able to enter through the door to a new lifestyle with an invaluable tool. God, give me the strength needed to continue on my journey.
God be with us all,
Elaine
Right there with ya! Time can't pass quick enough for me. I'm trying to keep myself occupied until Tuesday. I am sooooo excited. I feel like the little girl I used to be who used to press my nose against the cold window just before Christmas, watching for my very much older sister to come home from nursing school. It seemed like she would never get home but she did and it was well worth the wait. 
I was a little bad today. I made homemade chocolate peanut butter fudge for my family and I've had two small pieces. I'm gonna' put the rest out of sight so I won't eat anymore. I knew after surgery it would be awhile before I would be making it again. I know I'll have to avoid things like this until mentally I can handle making these goodies without taking a bite. I think, knowing that there will be a good chance that I will dump or throw up, that I won't be tempted but old habits are hard to break. 
One of my other hard habits that will be difficult for me is that right now when I wake up in the mornings, I immediately get me a diet coke (my morning coffee) and I grab a banana or peanut butter toast (whether I'm hungry or not). It has been a habit for me for many, many years! Knowing this is a habit, I think I will be prepared for it. I'll just have to have my glass of diet koolaid ready in the fridge instead. 
Anyhow, can't wait until I start losing the weight, start working out at the gym and start having more energy. There are so many projects I have been putting off because I don't feel like doin' them. Boy! My family better watch out. Some of their prize posesssion that they leave laying all over the place without putting them up just might disappear once I start spring cleaning at the beginning of 2006! 
Just like someone said a while back, "If God brings you to it, He'll bring you through it!" and I know in my heart that he has opened ALL the doors without a single squeaky wheel. He will be right there beside me as they put me to sleep on Tuesday. 
Hugs and have a great weekend! Race you to the operating room!!!! 
Peggy B. 
I was a little bad today. I made homemade chocolate peanut butter fudge for my family and I've had two small pieces. I'm gonna' put the rest out of sight so I won't eat anymore. I knew after surgery it would be awhile before I would be making it again. I know I'll have to avoid things like this until mentally I can handle making these goodies without taking a bite. I think, knowing that there will be a good chance that I will dump or throw up, that I won't be tempted but old habits are hard to break.
One of my other hard habits that will be difficult for me is that right now when I wake up in the mornings, I immediately get me a diet coke (my morning coffee) and I grab a banana or peanut butter toast (whether I'm hungry or not). It has been a habit for me for many, many years! Knowing this is a habit, I think I will be prepared for it. I'll just have to have my glass of diet koolaid ready in the fridge instead.
Anyhow, can't wait until I start losing the weight, start working out at the gym and start having more energy. There are so many projects I have been putting off because I don't feel like doin' them. Boy! My family better watch out. Some of their prize posesssion that they leave laying all over the place without putting them up just might disappear once I start spring cleaning at the beginning of 2006!
Just like someone said a while back, "If God brings you to it, He'll bring you through it!" and I know in my heart that he has opened ALL the doors without a single squeaky wheel. He will be right there beside me as they put me to sleep on Tuesday.
Hugs and have a great weekend! Race you to the operating room!!!!
Peggy B. 
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