Very Unhappy

Hi all, I'm very unhappy with myself. For the last 2 months I have gotten so far off track I could cry. I think my old eating habits are catching up with me. I've been eating things that I'm not supposed to be eating. I still end up paying for it by going to the bathroom lots. But it's getting way out of hand. I am no where near goal. not sure what mine is supposed to be and not sure when I will get to it. Sorry all for all the complaining, but I need to vent a bit. Thanks, Lisa J. in Mass

Lisa, good thing yours has only been for 2 months. Mine has been for the past 7 months. Lets make a pak with eachother and the group that we will stop doing what we know will hender us from getting to the goal where we want to be. Try to keep in touch with eachother atleast twice weekly to let each other know how things are going. I'm going to keep you in mind and hope that everything you want, you will accomplish out of this. I'M GLAD THAT YOU'VE MADE THIS TOPIC BECAUSE I WAS SCARED TO DO SO MONTHS AGO. LET KEEP IT MOVIN'

Cheryce, Thanks for the reply. Let's do keep in touch so this way we can be there for each other. I know we will both get there sometime soon. I'm never afraid to speak my mind. I figured that if I did then others will follow suit. Lisa J. in Mass

I think it would good to keep in touch too. The board was so acitve at the start. My state board is a hoot. I am on there a lot. Next Monday will make the 4th person in my family to have surgery this year so we all post on there and keep it going. Support is a must. Otherwise we will fall back into our old selves. If someone can come up with a solution I am for it. Jane

You and me both Lisa! It's so very hard. It's a daily struggle for me to keep on track. I've maintained for over 6 months now but my eating habits just plain out suck!! The only way I've been maintaining is exercise..I exercise my heart out. I know if I didn't exercise, I'm sure my weight would be creeping back up. I've been reading the boards for WLS graduates and one person on there has the 8 week challenge going where you pick some things to work on and improve on them and see if you can make positive changes by Christmas and then reward yourself at the end. I'm trying so hard to stay on task but I keep messing it up with my poor food choices. Of course it doesn't help when my other half wants to go on junk food runs and I happily go along with it and indulge until I'm sick to my stomach and need to throw up. However, I was proud of myself this week though. I went grocery shopping and I bought nothing but healthy choices..lots of chicken, vegetables, brown rice and fruit. Starting Monday, I'm going to cook for the whole week for my lunches and dinners and eat only those things that I prepare. I'm going to see if I can stick to it. I just don't understand why thinga are getting harder and harder. I don't know about you but my appetite is back and I'm hungry all the time..even though I still can't eat much at one sitting. I'm not sure as to what our solutions should be on this Lisa?? Unless all of us on here who are having the same problems can check in here a few times a week and give each other the support and encouragement to keep going and not fall into long bouts of bad habits. It scares me to death that I could gain weight back..I don't want to go back to that!! It also scares me to read that alot of people gain at least 20-30 lbs 18-24 months post op. The further away from 200lbs I am..the happier and healthier I'll be! Keep your head up and hopefully if we can put all of our heads together we can get back on track! Take care! Bridgett

Bridgett, Thanks for the good advice. I may look into that 8 week challenge. I'm not eating all the protein that I am supposed to as I get full and bloated. I've been eating some hallowwen candy that my coworker who sits next to me keeps in a basket on his desk. I mean they are small pieces but then I could eat more than 1. I've been eating some stuff that I pay for later, by going to the bathroom. I'm afraid that if I keep it up I will gain some of the weight back. I do go to Curves 2-3x's a week and I'm getting an exercise bike, so that should help me some. I think what you said about giving each other encouragement and support is a good idea. This way we can help each other out and feel better. Thanks so much, Lisa J. in Mass

Hi Lisa, I know what you mean about old habits creeping back. I started on the Halloween candy. I was eating piece after piece after piece. Nothing happened. It scared me to death. Do you have trouble with your bowels?. I really struggle with constipation. Using Phillips Milkomeg which is what my doctor told me to use, but that makes me feel really Ikey. Oh well we all have to get back to the basics. My exercise has almost stopped. I was jogging and started having female problems and had to stop and now I need to start something again. My Curves membership has expired. I think we as a family are going to join the YMCA. I think this will motivate everyone. I am lucky because I have stopped and my doctor told me to stop. I am at 157. So that puts my BMI at 25.5 so that is good. Anyway we have come such a long way. Lets get this undercontrol Jane

Jane, Thanks for the reply. I only have bowel troubles if I eat something and it doesn't agree with me, then I end up in the bathroom. My coworker sitting across from me is bringing all his leftover candy and mini candies that he keeps on his desk in a basket so he's making it not hard to resist a piece here or there. I go to Curves 2-3x's a week. Maybe I need to go more. I'm getting an exercise bike so maybe that will help me more too. It was mentioned to me by a few otehr members *****sponded to my post that we should check in with each other a couple times a week for support and encouragement. I think it's a good idea. Congrats on getting to 157. I know I will see that sometime just not sure when. Thanks so much, Lisa J. in Mass

Don't apologize Lisa, that is what all of us are here for...to give and recieve support! I think a lot of us have been where you are, or are there now. We need to help hold each other accountable, I think communication is the key to helping each other. Maybe a daily on track post or something, for people to chime in and give/take support? I know I need to be reminded daily of what track I'm supposed to be on. It definetely seems like a lot of people are gone, but for those of us here...let's stick together. Hang in there Lisa, you can turn this around! Shelly

Hi, Lisa J. I had gotten pretty far afield during September and October. I was averaging about 2,000 calories per day, plus I was only making it to the gym 1-2 times per week. I was eating a lot of carbs, plus allowing myself "treats" almost every day. I realized I was headed back down a path that I really didn't want to trod again.... So, I made a plan for myself, complete with regular, doable goals. First, I'm going to make it to the gym at least 4 times per week for at least 35 minutes on the elliptical machine. If I make it more than that, great, but not less. Second, I'm eating 5 "mini-meals" during the day, with each "mini-meal" being around 200 calories. And the "mini-meals" need to be something healthy and with a reasonable amount of protein. Then I allow myself 400-600 calories for dinner and some sort of sugar-free treat (SF fudgsicle, SF pudding, etc.). I'm in my third week of this "program" and it's working pretty well. I've lost 7 pounds in the past 2 weeks and am feeling a lot better. I can't tell you exactly how I got my thinking turned around, but I'm back on track now. It took 7-10 days of following this program before I started to feel less compulsive about food. I wonder if it has to do with having fewer carb cravings because I'm eating fewer carbs. Anyway, it seems to be working. Good luck getting yourself back on track. Remember that we're in it for the long haul and for our health! Kellie