got the blues

Tomorrow is my birthday and this has been the happiest year of my life so why this great wave of sadness. I can not seem to stop crying. I feel so alone. I have gained a few pounds and I know there is water retention but it just has stopped coming off and all I seem to eat is protien and maybe 1\2c of vegies a day. i have started tracking my food to see maybe something is going on there that i am not seeing. I am just sore all over and tired today. I am determined to have a great day tomorrow no matter. I will fake it till i make it. thanks for being there laura susan

Sorry you are having such a rough time right now. I too have had some depression in the recent past. Sometimes, I think I try to hard and let myself get run down. I have been soooo very careful with my eating, and working out, that I think my body needed a break. I don't know if expecting to much out of myself was the problem or not. Maybe it's just hormones. But I am feeling better now, and I am going to back off some on the excersise. I also am having a hard time with body image. Sometimes I see my reflection, and I can't believe I look that small. Other times I see my reflection, and I am sad because I thought I looked smaller then what I am seeing. I think it is going to be really hard to be satisfied. I mean, at some point, I need to stop loosing weight, and be happy with myself. I think that is going to be very hard. How much more weight are you wanting to lose? How much have you lost? How many sizes have you gone down? Do you have improved health and quality of life? Hang in there, the sadness will go away. Don't worry about you weight, it will take care of itself. Keep eating right to maintain your health. Take a break and do something nice for yourself. You've earned it!!! Jeanna 288/159/155

Laura - (despite my other health issues) I wonder if we don't set up ourselves a little. We loose awesome amounts of weight, have major changes in our body images (inside and outside) and KNOW that we should be happy about it. We are over joyed truely, but with all the changes goes some very normal grief. I know that I don't talk about all of that becaue this is all GOOD, and many people don't always get the rest. I forget that along with ANY change even (sometimes especially) good comes the rest of the emotion and we rarely give ourelves permission to feel and share it. I don't know mybe I am just full of hot air. Hang in there and happy day. : - l Ann

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!! I'm sorry you are feeling sad, but I understand. I get that way sometimes too. We've changed so much over the last year, and as wonderful as it's been, it's stressful too. I hope you feel better soon, and hope you are having a good birthday! Take care, Jeanne in Miami