Update on me

Hi All...sorry I havent been around. I have lost 124 pounds since surgery and 156 including the presurgery pounds i lost alone. In a year, I guess that sounds good but ..its not. I eat whatever, whenever. What I dont eat I drink in alcohol. I have turned one addiction into another, or maybe even 2. The other I cant talk about on here. I dont take any vitamins anymore nor protein. I am definately not your prime candidate. In fact there are times when I wish I could go back to big old fat me who was happy and content to sit in her big chair, eat whatever she wanted with a beautiful family and a wonderful husband. Now I cant find anything that makes me happy but going out drinking. I have called a therapist. Im smart enough to know I am on a path of destruction but too dumb to quit it on my own. Thanks for listening. I have been reading your posts...just not posting myself. Deb

Oh Deb, I am so sorry to hear that you are struggling so greatly. Please know that you are not alone, and that my thoughts and prayers are with you. I'm glad that you have called a therapist - I pray that he/she is someone who can truly help you examine your life and discover what the root of the problem is. I know that you have a tough road ahead of you, but I believe that you can and WILL make it. Don't try to fix everything at once...one small step at a time. (Even if it's as simple as eating a high protein meal today, that's a start....) Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you, or if you just want someone to talk to. We're all at different places in our journey, but the paths are pretty similar, and I'm always here to lend my perspective. I'll be praying for you. Kate

I sometimes feel the same. I am sabitasing all of my good work. I eat anything and everything. and have gained 11 lb. luckly I do not drink etc. but I feel so depresed latly its like I gave up at 7 months out and have waisted these last 5 months. I have called a therapist as well and start therapy next week. I am also considering going to OA. Lets resolve to do one positive thing a day. weather it is to drink on protien shake or take a 15 min walk. Just something we can feal positive about. The other Deb

Deb, we are all here to support you! It takes a lot of courage to admit you need help, and alot more to seek it out! Stay persistent, and get the help you need. You've gone through a lot, and should be proud of how well you've done....we are all proud of you! Hang in there! Shelly

Hi Deb~ I'm so sorry to hear that you are struggling You're not alone in this. I'm glad to hear that you are going to get help through a therapist. I had to go into counseling myself. This whole thing isn't such an easy process is it? I've struggled with my own demons with this too. I think the therapist will help you get back on track Deb. I can bet he or she will help you put a finger on what is driving you to your behavior. Mine did and what I found out was a bunch of unresolved issues that I would just shove down and try to forget about with food and other bad behaviors. I've noticed that since the surgery, since I can't eat and eat and reach for the "soothing foods" it has made me take a long hard look at myself. I journal alot...ALOT!! This may help you...when you want to reach for that food or drink ask yourself why you're doing it and the reasons may suprise you. I wish you luck and let us know how you're doing. Keep your head up..we are all here for you! Bridgett

Aww Deb, I'm sorry to hear that things just aren't going so well for you right now. If there's anything I can do to help, please email me. I'm glad you're going to go to therapy. You just need to work this out and find a way to get back to the happy you, who just isn't overweight anymore. I wouldn't call you dumb at all - you're smart to know when you can't quit something on your own. You'll get back to where you need to be. Cheryl