New picture and old battles

Ok, I updated my profile and put a new 11-months-out picture at the bottom! I'm actually happy with a picture of myself for the first time in YEARS! Well, the batwing showing is pretty bad, but look at the rest of me! haha And... I'm fighting old demons again. I have an addictive personality. I've never done drugs and I drink very rarely, but I have a food addiction (dont we all??) and lately a shopping addiction! I swear, I'm so happy when I'm putting crap I dont need into my cart, but the minute I get it home I'm back to depressed again and worried sick how I'll explain away the money I spent... As for food, it's all I think about. I'm not eating too much junk, but as soon as I'm not full from a meal I'm eating again, I dont think I'm even giving myself time to get hungry. I weighed a bowl of cereal the other morning- 2oz cereal and 2oz milk- and realized I have been eating twice that every morning! First of all, how can more than that fit in, and secondly, how am I not getting too full and getting sick? I'm taking an antidepressant now, have been for years and years, and I'm going back to my doctor to get a different on. Anybody know if any of them will curb addictive actions? I want to think Wellbutrin does, but I'm not sure... Ok, so thanks for listening to me ramble and check out how hot I am! hahaha Rebecca

Rebecca, look how tiny you are. You look amazing girl! as for the binging. i do it too. I also can't understand how I can fit that much in and eat again. I think it's a phase. I go through it at least once a month. STAY AWAY FROM WELBUTRIN! It will make you nasty as hell. I took it before surgery to stop smoking. It's awful! Erin 310/148/151 3 lbs. BELOW GOAL

You look terrific - congratulations! Isn't it neat how our collar bones stick out now? I never even knew I actually had them in there all this time LOL!!! Good luck with your demons - we all have them to some extent. Sounds like you have a pretty good handle on things, some people would just be in denial and you aren't, so be proud of that! You take care!!! Jeanne

Hey, Rebecca! You are looking great on your journey. Don't sweat the occasional double eating stuff. Your body might need the extra nutrition on those days. Today was a "wanna eat everything in sight day" for me, but my body just dumped 7 pounds off somewhere along the way. I figure my body is needing some kind of nutrition or extra vitamins. I'm amazed that I can go days without losing a pound then all of a sudden overnight I'm down 5 - 10 pounds! As long as you're still losing (if you still have some to lose) or maintaining if your at your goal weight, then you must be eating the right amounts of food for your body. Peggy B.

Rebecca you do look so amazing. If you like to shop go yard sailing. I have found great deals and spend very little. Its nice to plan our a Friday morning. Its sad that we all struggle with the same demands. Don't let them get the best of you. Go see your doctor or call your surgeon and see if they have a post op group that deals with this. A little medical help at times isn't bad. I've done it. Good Luck Jane

Thanks girls! It's SO nice to know I'm not along and NOT crazy like I feel! Wonder if these problems are going to be around in 5 or 10 years, or if we'll all get used to them by then? I've been focusing on the immediate time instead of future time, so it's hard to imagine what I'll be doing and feeling years from now. I just know I'll still be skinny!!! Thanks for all your advice and kind words, they really mean a lot! Rebecca