anyone on the west coast willing to talk?? (phone)

I have just been having a hard time the last few months...I am experiencing depression, i dont want to eat hardly ever, I sleep about 15 or more hours a day, I have a gym membership I dont use, my friends are jealous of me and I am just plain tired!!! Is anyone else experiencing this??? I am down 109 since surgery have 20% body fat My surgeon just changed my goal from 150 to 175olbs because I am 5 ft 8 and I am carrying only about 40 lbs. of fat on my body. I am loose skin city when it comes to my upper arms (waterwings) but my belly isnt to bad and i have lonng legs so they dont look bad but my back is saggy. I have gone from 30-32 clothes to almost a size 14 jeans and xl juniors tops!!! I look good but feel horrible!!! Now that I have laid it all out does anyone still feel like talkin?? Shannon highest 375 at surgery 322 Now 213 goal 170

Hi Shannon~ I'm not on the west coast but I do have unlimited long distance on my phone and I'd be more than happy to talk with you. I think alot of us here have and still are experiencing what you're going through. I know when the depression kicks in, it sucks and you feel so alone. I'm the opposite of you, I want to eat all the time because I'm an emotional eater. I also want to sleep all the time too but the insomnia that I have gets so bad that I can't. I also know what you're talking about when the friends are jealous of you. I've withdrawn alot from people these days because I'm better off without the people who make me feel bad about yourself. I'm tired of the oh you look better than me crap...I'm so jealous I wish I could be your size..or jeeze maybe I should have my stomach stapled it was so easy for you. what I try to tell them is that I didn't do this for looks, I did it for my health and easy..hmmmm NOT! I fight every day..I fight the head hunger, I fight the emotional eating, I fight the not wanting to exercise and just sleep on my days off, I fight the negativity that I have looking in the mirror at myself and seeing the sagging skin and the bones, I fight trying so hard to not weigh myself everyday, I fight so hard to accept the compliments that I receive and most of all, I fight hard to accept myself..so these people who are jealous and think that we took the easy way out just don't know what we go through. Keep your head up Shannon! If you need to talk just email me with your number and I'll call you!

thanks so much..you have mail!! why isnt my new pic on this?? does anyone see it???

Shannon, is there no post WLS surgery support group in your area? If not, perhaps working toward starting a group will help bring you out of your funk. Shoot, just getting together with one or two WLS types, men or women will at the very least help you realize that others share your journey. You could start off by merely going to a coffee shop or a local park and take turns bringing a suitable beverage. This website is very helpful, however, the monthly (men only) meetings that I attend give me a chance to shake hands with fellow travelers that give me a little more strength to continue... Bud