Having a bad time!!

I am so down right now. First 2 weeks ago I get the flu. Then 1 week ago I fall and sprain my ankle. Now yesturday I lost my cell phone, it fell off my purse. I have gained 4 lbs. I am doing a lot of emotional eating which makes me feel like crap afterwards (mentally). I just want to sit here and cry. The stress is so bad that my shoulders are all tensed up! I really just want to lay in bed all day and cry. I don't know what to do. Things keep getting worse and worse! Sorry I had to vent. Erin

Hi Erin.....sorry to here all that bad news. I to am going through alot and somedays i just wanna give up. But you no we have to keep right on. I am going to talk to my doc about my crying spells. I was in the hospital about 3 weeks ago for obstructions and i havent felt the same....before i felt so good. And about the weight thing...i am 133lbs and trying to maintain and lord only knows how to do that.....we just have to stick together ya no............vickie r.

Erin, I'm sorry you're having a tough time right now; some times life just keeps throwing us curve balls, even when we don't want to play anymore. Some of things that are going on are out of your control now - getting the flu, spraining your ankle, losing your cell phone. But how you react to these things is totally within your control. Take back your power, girlfriend. Don't let the bad things that happen in your life dictate how you are going to feel. Identify those triggers for emotional eating and work on replacing those automatic responses with something new and healthy. It's not going to continue to get worse forever. And it sounds like you've had your fair share for a while, so I'm betting that things will even out for you soon. Just keep your chin up in the meantime, and tell those old demons to go back from whence they came; they are not welcome here any more. {{{{{hugs}}}}}} and to you, now and for the rest of the day!!! Kellie

Erin...beautiful, beautiful lady...come on it is over...went in 3's...now get up and get ready for your wedding...come on girl you can do it...no more pity party for you...you have a wedding to get ready for.... Dennis

Thanks for the advice. I just can't snap out of it. I know it will pass, but I am just so blah today. I look in the morrior and see fat! I know I am extremly boney from my neck to my chest, but then I have about 10 lbs of skin hanging from my stomach. I look at my thighs and they are looking bigger (I don't know if the skin is sagging there more or what) I feel extremly unattractive like that. Which puts me into a downer. Also, sorry guys don't read this part, my chest is gross. They are like 2 tube socks filled only 1/4 with sand hanging off my chest. I can't stand to even let Brad see them. I am always hidding them. I don't know what to do. My weight isn't moving, I just read a post that a girl that is 5'8" is weighing 135 lbs, on the main message board. Why am I only at 158...well now I am at 162 cause I GAINED! I would be delighted to weight 135! Erin

Erin......don't worry about your breast right now.........i worry about mine every hour and it is makin me ill thinkin about my hubby touching them, my hubby is a breat man.i was 44dd now after i roll them and tuck them and shake them in a bra i wear a 34b lol............MINE GIRL LOOKS LIKE FRUIT ROLL UPS!!!!!!!!!!!! I plan on having new ones some day............girl we need to get back on track......life is better for me now than a yr ago. I just find things to worry about.............you take care and get ready for that wedding!!!!!!!!!!! vickie r.

Hey Erin, Just wanted to see if you are feeling any better. I been going through things too. I had a upper respitrory infection and the antibiotics made me feel so blah plus I backed into someone in my car and had to come up with the money for our deductable so I feel ya. All I know is we have to try to stay positive because we have come along way to let a few bumps in the road get us down. You are a beautiful women and have alot to look forward just keep your eyes on the future. I am having issues with my body also with the extra skin my mom and husband say I don't need to lose more but I still feel fat because of the skin and I seem to be dwelling on it alot. I would pry be crying alot if I wern't medicated lol. If you ever want to talk feel free to give me a call. I'm usually home. 864-868-7469. Hugs, Marcey 255/150/140

I am actually a lot better today. You know what my problem is. It's freaking PMS. The day before my period I am crying and depressed and stressed. Then as soon as my period comes, it's like 5 tons have lifted right off my shoulders and I am as happy as I can be. I even died my hair last night. I made it a redish blonde with blonde highlights. I love it, but I am getting some mixed reviews. Which is understandable cause it is a big chnage from blonde to this. And you know the first few days after you dye your hair, it's so drasticly dark bright. So it will tone down. But I apsolutly love it. But, anyway, you sound like you have my luck....lol. But thank you for your post, I am feeling better and I willl give you a call! Here is my number 717-691-1334 Erin

Erin~ I hear you about the emotional eating!!! GRRRRRRRRRR!! It frustrates me because I know I do it and I know what and who triggers it. I've been trying something and it seems to be helping me. I went out and bought a notebook and index cards. I keep them on the counter in the kitchen. Whenever I want to just stuff my face, I write down in the notebook how I'm feeling and if I'm really hungry and if I really want to eat what I'm thinking about. I write down that phrase "nothing tastes as good as thin feels" and I write to myself ...for example...do you really want to go back to where you were? do you really want to have to shop in the plus sized department again? I then write down the positve things that this tool has brought me..such as being able to fit in a size 3/4 pair of shorts and is it worth eating a bunch of crappy food just because I'm stressed out and because someone pissed me off or I'm feeling bad about myself? I then take the index card and I write down all of the things that I wanted to eat at that moment and add up all of the calories I saved and I put it in a jar and then I look at what I could have eaten at the end of the week...it puts you back in control and in focus. Writing helps me so much Erin and it gets out so much on paper and I notice that if I don't do it, I feel like crap because I store up all those emotions. I've been working with a counselor for a little while and she has suggested this to me and by go**** works! It's hard for me right now because I've got my appetite back. My husband refuses to change his eating habits..so there is junk food in the house and it is so hard for me to resist eating it and snacking in between meals and especially when I get emotional. Like the other morning, I came home and I was so stressed out from work...I wanted to eat poptarts, brownies, chips, cookies, candy...anything I could get my hands on..I wanted to eat *I'm a food addict big time and it's so hard for me to resist eating* but I took a conscious effort and avoided eating those things and I wrote down everything that I wanted to eat and I saved myself from eating 800 calories that I didn't need. I notice that I go for the crap and not the good stuff when I get upset...do you? I hate when some people say that I took the easy way out. I tell you what this is no easy ride, especially when you have a bad relationship with food and emotional eating problems. I'm sure those 4 lbs will just fall off of you again after you put yourself back in control Erin. You can do it!! If you ever need to talk, I'm here for you Sorry for such a long post..I've got my insomnia kicking in again!!