Long Time No Post

Hello to all my fellow weight loss friends... It has been awhile since my last post... Alot has been going on in my life that i have had a hard time with... I moved from CO to CA first of May and had to make a journey back to CO in June because my ex husband father of my two children died... He drank himself to death... I had hoped that with us moving to CA he would want to get sober and fight to win us back... but that never happened... To date I have lost 143 lbs... and look and feel better than I have in years... I only have 20 lbs to go til i hit my goal of 170 lbs... but lately i have been struggling... I have always been an emotional eater... and find myself returning to my old habits... I feel like i am eating all day long... I am constantly full all day... and im afraid of gaining weight... so far i am maintaining, but getting scared... im coping with the depression and having to help my kids ages 10 & 7 deal with losing their father... right now im not working and am home all day long... I find some days its hard for me to even get up and be functional... i lay around the house.... Im finding there are not as many support groups out here as there were in Denver... they are usually only once a month instead of once a week... and i dont want to gain weight... im so afraid... I guess i just need to pull myself together and think of my long term goal... but again, somedays its hard for me to even think of anything but our loss... If anyone has gone thru something similiar i would greatly appreciate hearing how you have dealt with this... if not, any advice is very welcome... Glad to see everyone is doing such a great job in their journey... keep up the good work... Leslie 333/190/170

I am glad to hear you are back and saddened by your news. Although I can not relate to your situation, I am sorry for your children's and your loss. All I can say is take it one day at a time and keep the faith. Just like you were strong enough to have this surgery you need to be strong enough for your children to help them through this awful time. I wish you courage and continued success.

Sorry to hear about what you are going thru. Love your children, they need you now. Secondly, about the depression (that is what's going on), get to a Dr. and tell him how you're feeling, there is wonderful medication out there that can help you over this hump. Thirdly, I can so relate to the "eating all day, feeling full all the time" This has become a problem for me too and, like you, I am so afraid to gain any weight. I've been doing alot of "self-talk". Justreally being aware of the fullness in my pouch and telling myself I can't possibly be hungry. I, too, am an emotional eater and feel myself falling into the old habits. I have just really been trying to keep myself aware of what I am doing and feeling and how I can stop these destructive tendencies. It does seem to be helping. I have to keep reminding myself that this surgery is just a tool and I need to change my behavior and way of thinking about food. WE CAN DO THIS!!! It is getting harder,though. I keep thinking about how terrible I used to feel before the surgery and how great I feel now. This was the best decision I have ever made in my entire life. You will get thru this. Just being able to post you're feelings and trying to get some support is a great first step. We're all here to help each other. Nancy 382/229/180?

Thank you for your kind words and encouragement... I continue to trek on... I know this will pass... and I am seeing my Dr. about getting back on Paxil.. I have been on it before and it was wonderful... I know things will get better with time and the meds will help... Thanks Much, Leslie 333/189/170

Hi Leslie I wanted to send you some information on support group around Fresno. Go to http://www.obesityhelp.com/morbidobesity/state-forums/CA/postdetail/302790.html?vc=0 I hope you find something useful. Sheryl