is it all about the size??my shopping experience

inquisitive K.
on 3/28/05 7:48 am - woodside, NY

Everyone I know in starting this journey I knew that I wanted to be healthier but ultimatly I want to lose alot of weight. I felt sluggish and just not thrilled with how I was living my life, But at the same time I had fun and felt good most of the time but felt boggled down because of my weight, can I fit in that seat, clothes that I would like to wear did not come in my size. I wonder if they did would I have had the shopping blues, and felt discusted with my self. but i did have this surgery and began to feel lighter and everyone around me told me that I looked happy, I can tell you that in the beginning of my weight loss I felt the same so I wonder if it was I who looked happier or was it them who judged me differently because of my weight loss? moving on: I am in totol amazment I will be seeing my Dr. next month and I can't wait to see how much I have lost.. But this week I went to buy a pair of jeans my 20 jeans were too big, I went to lane and Bryant and tried on a 16 and they looked good but were a bit loose, so I said to myself try on pair of 14 and I did and THEY FIT Perfectly I can not believe it. A 14, I was always a 16 as a teenager and I looked good then, and now I look even better!! Not only that but I went to marshals and mined you I hate to shop for clothes and I tried on a trench coat the hanger said x-large and I put it on it was a bit snug but it was form fitted, when I looked at the tag it was a size 12... A 12 well I bought it and have been rocking it since thursday and it looks good not silly and I look so different in and I do feel different when I wear it. but any way its not the size it is how I feel, my daughter and I have been having so much fun together and I have so much energy, work is great I work with street involved teenagers and I have more liveliness with the clients. and I am just enjoying life ohh and I started swimming again and it is so great. I am so glad that I had this surgery it allowed me to take control of me, and deal with issues from the past in a new productive way.. All the best to all of you on your journey's peace and love kat