Body Image???

Well, I have a different problem. In my mind, I was never fat, just "sturdy". In the past couple of years some badly-thought-out photo-ops made me realize I was FAT, but I never completely internalized it. ...or did I? I noticed this past week or so that I still avoid mirrors in ladies rooms, stores, even at home. I avert my face from plate glass windows. I automatically stretch my neck up if I have to look even at my face in the mirror. This weekend I was trying on closet back-stock - the stuff I hope I've outgrown. And I MADE myself look very critically. Still not skinny, but dang! SO much better! And at lunch today a hefty person made some weight-centric remark and I agreed; he looked at me oddly and said, "But you're not overweight." BONGGGG!!! .