Almost 1yr down!!!

Well its almost, or well for the most part one yr down as of the 31 Oct. iam happy and sad all in one. It has been and intresting ride to say the least. i started off at a highest in this life at 346lbs(worst) and am currently sitting at 237 as of this morning. i havent been as dedicated as i should have been and see and feel it now. i have been reading the posts to check the progress of my peers and some of them are real go getters.and they really shine! then there is me. i just cant get it together. and when i see the sagging bod in the mirror, i know that i have come alot farther from where i was before. but am sad since i have not reached my intended goal.(goal is 175/180-that is still 62lbs away.) that is a total loss of about 100 or so lbs. iam a size 14/16 and celebrate the health that i have now...... just something inside my head is evil thinking that i would look like the video vixens in the 1980's hairband music videos, that slinks across the top of a jaguar...and have the hair of a goddess!!! HEEEHEEheeheeeeehee The humor of that is unmeasurable. and soo very far from the truth... that is one thing that i have so far learned is truth... truth is that iam who iam and even in my head iam the tigress, the seductress, the vixen, when i open my eyes, iam lovable and cuddily and round.(not rotund anymore) but round...cant say curvaceous since that would be stretching it...heheheeheee bubbly around the middle.. and hair that is workable when it doesnt rain. i have a more youthful face now,not the chizled jawline with high cheekbones-but you cant fight genetics(and that is alright).i feel like the nerdy kid back in high school as iam the same size now that i fought not to be when i was young.(i just have a better way to handle things and see things in a diffrent light). iam not tawny kitan nor am i bobby brown... but in my head, on a good day- I ROCK...smiles... i resolve as of the day this morn, to make "me" happen..and workout the way that i should have been along time ago... since i would love to get some nice new pretty parts(plastics) but know that with money and family that i will have to really just learn to like what i have and to grow up and move on.... but at least i can make the most of what i have and really feel like i have earned this right? much love to all of you that listen to my babblings... you are MY family...

Hey Michelle! Congratulations on your 1 year anniversary!!! You should be so proud of all that you have accomplished this past year! You're doing great Please don't be hard on yourself, for not losing as fast as you want to. All of us lose at a different rate. My goal was to feel healthy and to be able to go places with my family. I've accomplished that. So, even though I still have to lose 40 more pounds, I'm happy with the point that I'm at right now! I'm proud of what I have done for myself. This was the best decision that I have ever made for my health. I, too, have always been overweight. I love when someone says,"look at how skinny she is." NOBODY has ever said those words to me, before! I'm proud of you and all of us who had the courage to better our health and our lives. Just remember, that beauty is from the inside/out. And you sound like a very beautiful person. I hope that you start feeling better about what you have done for YOU! Your WL Sister, Jane

Wow Michelle, Look at what you have done. You are now 237 Lbs - size 14/16! That IS shining! Congratulations. Judy