tomorrow is the big day

I have such mixed amotions happy ,sad ,hungry ha ha. fear of the unknown pain feeling sick and weak i have waited so long for this Day to come work so hard for it I thought I would be on top of the world. I guess I feel so down because my best friends 22 month old was killed last week in a freak lawn mower accident I lost my son two years ago to RETT syndrome and know the pain she is in and I can't help I feel selfish having the surgery when she is hurting so bad. And she is worried about me and want to come to the hospital with me. sorry don't mean to bring anyone down i am just rambling from being nervous well the good news is i will never be this big again .see you on the thin side carol

Carol, Sorry to hear of your loss and your friends. You must know; it is completely normal to feel mixed emotions, this still happens after the surgery too. Remember why you chose to make this very personal and heroic journey. As for being there for your friend, you are only "out of commission" for a little time. You will find comfort in each other through all of this. Good Luck tomorrow, I will pray for the two of you.