Down in the Dumps

Well things have not been going well as far as my weight loss is concerned. I had to go take a test for work about my back problems and that just threw me into a cycle that hasn't been so great. I was on morphine and valume and a large amount of other drugs. Anyway, I would get up enough just to grab something to eat and then head back to bed. I really didn't care what I was eating as long as something was in my stomach. Then to make matters worse once I was feel better I made my husband chocalate chip cookies(which I have done several times post op)but for some reason I just couldn't keep them out of my mouth. I think I ate six in about 12 hours, which made me even more depressed because I let myself do it. I decided that today is a new day and I am going to get my butt in gear and do what I am supposed to. I also have not exercised once in about 2 weeks which is also a big let down. My appetite is also alot larger than it was in the past. Micheal's chart really gives me insentive to do well so I have something to show for it during the week. Hopefully I will be able to get my butt back in gear. I did post a new picture of myself on my profile if anyone would like to see it. I don't think you can really see any big changes from the last picture I posted but I guess it is all part of the process. Thank you for allowing me to vent and if anyone has any good words of advise it would be appreciated. Christine

Chris, I am sorry to hear you are down in the dumps. Your picture looks great !!!! Your doing great. I see a difference. Everyone makes mistakes, Just start a new day. My sister lives with back pain. and she is always in pain. I went thru a week of that also.Snacking and making bad food choices, I am sure most of us have. Just start over. Take Care Hugs Barb

Hi Christine, What do you mean I'd not see a difference in your pictures??? GIRL, you lot a LOT of weight, and it really shows! Be proud of that! I posted my "down in the dumps" post last week and slowly, I'm trying to climb my way out of my rut. I didn't get my CD yet, I'm expecting it this week...I hope it helps me to put things into perspective... I'm trying to eat better too...Making sure I'm not reaching for junk or carbs. It has to be the winter months doing this too. Here in RI, we've not had much of a winter...warm days and not much snow. But, today, we're in frigid teens with a windchill in the single digits. Who can go out and walk in this??? (another excuse, I have a treadmill right here at home) Anyways...I think 5 months must be a "let down" time for WLS patients, because the psychologist that I had to see prior to surgery sent me a letter asking how I was doing and if I needed to come in, to make an appointment. Lets all make sure we post here to get out our feelings and what is bothering us and with our support for one another, we'll get through this together. Hang in there...and I will too! paula

I agree, 5 months must be the magical month that our emotions are at a high point. The excitment of the surgery is sort of over and if you're not a real fast loser it can be draining. I have lost slowly and feel like the best time to lose is over, but when I talked to a friend, who had the surgery over a year ago, she said we are all different and that weight loss is very individual, but the good news is that we are real close to the same weight loss at 6 months. She lost 80 lbs at 6 months and I have lost 70 lbs at 5 1/2 months. (Her grand total was 143 lbs in one year.) So that gave me a lot of hope. I'm not done, I just have to get back on the ball and stop grazing. Today was a better day for me to stay commited. We can all get to our goals, we just have to believe that the best is still yet to come. Debra

Are you kidding me, you look great. I would never think that you are over 200lbs. I had a little carb binge on Sunday . My hubby and step-stinkers(they call me the step-monster) were eating pancakes followed by donuts and me, well I ate pretzels, not 1 or 2 (big hard ones) more like 4 or 5. I think they were 100 calories a piece. This is probably the 2nd time since surgery I ate way more than I should have, but I was pissy because I've only lost 6 lbs this month. Well I didn't gain any weight, so I put it behind me and on we go............ Micha 288/212/150