just cant deal!!
on Sunday my nephew died from complications of diabetes..he was 31
he was not heavy he was very tall and thin..no one had heard from him in about a week so we went to his apartment and he was dead...no warnings NOTHING ..... his funeral is Thursday
I cant keep anything down..so eating right now is not an option..I am just trying to keep hydrated..I just wi**** wasn't x-mas this week!!!
I just wondered if any one has any suggestions..cause I could probably use some!!
Jean
I was very offended that Michael told you to curse God..any other time I would keep my mouth shut and don't say anything but no one should ever curse god, yes he may forgive you but cursing him is not going to change anything or help anything, so I hope Michael reads this and changes his mind about cursing God or anyone else.
I am truly sorry for your loss and I will pray for you and your family.
There is a very old story about a man who cursed his lord. The lord listened to his rant, allowed him to leave and the man wandered aimlessly, angry at his Lord. When the man had no where else to go, he returned to his Lord, who held him tight in his arms and said "It is alright. I love you. You have returned to me." Then the Lord called out to his people, and celebrated the return of the lost soul.
Sometimes our souls get lost. Horrible things happen to good people, and it doesn't make sense. The bible is filled with people who cursed God. And when they returned, God loved them, forgave them and understood them. All because God knows, thanks to his son, Jesus, exactly what it means to be human and to have horrible things happen.
Remember, even Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, cursed his father while on the cross, Crying out "My God, why has thou forsaken me!" And just like you and I, when we are convinced that God isn't there for us, God was still there for Jesus. He wrapped his loving arms around his son, as he does for us, and took him back into his fold. As he grants each of us the same grace.
My father understood I was a difficult child. He would lay down the law, and I would scream and yell. He handled it the same way every time. He would just stand there, and look at me. When I'd exaushted my ranting, he'd reach out and hug me. Then he'd tell me he loved me. Then he'd send me to my room. God is no different. He knows sometimes the rage of unfairness that is loose in the world is more than we can bear. He is willing to stand there and take our rage, our anger and our distrust, and wrap them up in his loving arms.
There is a rather famous poem in which the narrator discribes a man walking along the beach with the Lord. In the sky flashes the scenes of his life. When it ends, he looks back and notices that at those times of trouble in his life, there is only one set of footprints in the sand. The man curses the Lord with the same cry as Jesus from the cross, if in prettier language.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."
The Lord answers him with the same answer he gave Jesus. The same answer that he gives each of us, when we give up hope and rally against him.
"My precious, precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffereing, when you see only one set of footprints in the sand, it was then that I carried you."
I am sorry my belief in an all loving God offends you. A God who loves us and knows that sometimes we just can't deal with what life throws our way, and is loving enough to wrap his arms around us whenever we doubt him the most. But I will not be ashamed to have the same weakness as our Lord and Savior did on the cross, that at times I have a hard time understanding God's plan, and accepting the way the world works. And that no matter how angry I may get at God, he will forgive and pull me tighter to his breast.
Jean,
I'm so sorry about the sudden loss of your nephew. How terrible for the entire family.
Don't worry about your eating right now. Your appetite will come back. Just try to stay hydrated and have some Propel to keep your electrolytes up.
You're going to run the gammut of emotions through this and especially since it's holiday time...
If you don't start to eat after a few days, please try to have something or call your doctor. You don't want to get yourself sick.
Hang in there.
paula
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