cravings

I don't mean to post when things are bad. I have been out to eat with my family the past three meals. Once chinese, that was easy, chow mein. Then I had a family buffet- chichen and pototes. again not a big deal. Small bits and chew--chew. Now tonight we went to Chilies. I craved tonic and just a big old meal. I felt like crying. I just wanted to eat a normal meal for a change. I guess I shouldn't say normal. I craved what we used to do, eat lots of different stuff. Usually all I have to do remind myself how great I am doing. I am down 40+ pounds since 9/27. I feel great and for the first time am down under 250 #'s. Thanks for letting me vent I already feel a little better, but was wondering if anyone else feels sad when they are eating with others? Especially with the holidays coming up. d

D I know exactly how you are feeling. I told my husband the exact same thing Thursday night, I just want to sit down and have a normal meal, not just 3 or 4 bites of something and be full. He and I would eat out just about every night prior to surgery, and I kinda miss that. We have started eating out again but it's just not the same. Believe me I am very very happy with my results I am down 53 1/2 lbs in 7 weeks, but sometimes I just wanna feel like myself again (you know stuffed and satisfied)LOL. But I must say that tonight we went to Don Pablos and I had a taco salad (part of one), and I felt like I used to, I have had a lot of problems with bread and vomiting and tonight I had none of that, it was a good meal and I felt much better, hopefully you will too. Take Care Lynn

I hear you loud and clear. We ate at Black Angus last night and I sat in total awe and jealousy at the couple next to us packing away a ****tail, appetizers and a huge lobster tail and steak. I even had that discussion with my husband, that I miss a full mouth full of food. The small little bits make eating very un-fun, if you know what I mean. But that is why I had the surgery, because when faced with that food, my brain would lose, and my mouth would always win. Hang in there.... Denise

I too am right there with you. It's weird because I feel good about the 36 lbs I've lost but I mourn the loss of normal food. I've had a rough few weeks....I get paid in my chest like a heart attack when something isn't going to go down and hurt until it comes back up. I had one stricture and wondering if I'm getting another one. I feel like I can't eat anything and after I eat if it does stay down I feel yucky. I'm having a heck of a time with getting enough protein because I can't eat high protein foods without getting sick (tuna, chicken, etc). I make myself do one protein drink (Fuzzy Naval) but that's about all I can handle. I too want to eat something normal and not feel sick!

I am a Pepsi-holic. I can even smell Pepsi on my husbands breathe when he drinks one. Is that sad or what. I had 2 strictures and I have just been allowed to start real food. And I want a little bit of everything. I have a huge bowl of Halloween candy in my dining room and I think I go threw it every day and see what my kids have eaten. Of course none of them like the 100 Grand bars that are my absolute favorite so I finally gave them all away to my sister. I am not quite sure why I torture myself- I haven't had any-but boy was I tempted today. I got an eliptical machine today so hopefully when I feel like eating something I will get my butt on the machine.

I'm right there with you, Donna. I crave weird things, like fruit. I'm supposed to have fruit and veggie on my diet after Nov. 16, but I don't know which ones I'm allowed, etc. Tonight, at my aunts, there was pizza and orange slices and annaset to be like our favorite family Italian food place. Anyway, I ate the cheese off the pizza, and that was fine, but I was absolutely craving the oranges! I knew that I shouldn't b/c I have a sticture or something and I'm on medication for the acid so it would have been a bad idea, so I didn't. But it was hard!

Shannon, I know that all doctors are different, but I have strict orders from my surgeon and bariatric specialist to not eat citrus fruit ever again.... I am mournful because my dh and I love navel oranges during the winter, but I am glad to give them up (along with my dear sweet Coca-Cola) to lose the weight that I must lose to be able to have the lifestyle I want. ~~em

It is hard, especially at night. My hubby and I usually watch a movie or play video games together, and I used to have popcorn or something like that. He always has a huge bowel of ice cream. Now I get to watch him eat the ice cream. I have moments when I mourn the loss of eating because something tastes so darn good, and I have to stop before I want to. I'm trying to focus on my food when I eat now, and really savor every bite. Except when drinking protein shakes. Vile.