My night...

September 9, 2005 Good morning! How are we doing today? Well right? Staying high protein and low carb and walking? Not walking? WHAT? Okay if I weren't only a week out of surgery I'd be over there dragging you to the nearest park, it's a great day to walk so get up and get out! Now... on to why I'm on the computer and not walking LOL... Last night my son Donny decided he wanted mommy's attention. He also decided the best way to get it would be to PUSH on my belly right after eating. OUCH!! Then he came right back and did it again, this time hard enough to send tears to my eyes and make me wonder if he singlehandedly killed his mother. My tummy felt like I needed to vomit, the room started turning black, things were spinning around, I wanted to die to end the pain, then the pain from Donny's pushing triggered my fibromyalgia and when that is really bad I start having muscle spasms... this time, in my chest. When I have muscle spasms in my chest, I can't breath! I can't draw a breath because I have no control of my muscles. Fortunately, there are 2 women in the house at this point one herding the kids away, the other trying to figure out how to help me... they couldn't... My son started wailing, trying to get to mama for hugs, they couldn't let him, so the wailing grew, then Hannah started crying (my friend's daughter), then my daughter's started crying, and everyone wanted mama, and no one could have her because she was dying... or so she thought. The women called Frank and brought him into the mix... he knew how to interpret my jagged whisper talk and figured out what was needed. When my chest muscles spasm like that, I need someone to put a pillow on my chest and pressure to slow the movement enough so I can draw a breath (not sure how that was discovered, someone suggested it though) so he held a pillow on my chest while I breathed (FINALLY) I could also speak while the pillow was in place, and told them what was going on as loud as I could... Well, Sandra spend the night after Sarah drove her home to pick up some things, and the rest is history, I have NO idea how the kids made such a big mess in the bathroom last night, nor do I care, I am just hoping that tonight goes a lot better and that I get rest!!! Let me tell you, this scared me in a huge way. If I NEVER feel that way again I'll be quite happy!!! Hugs to all, now you know why I'm not walking too far today, but at least you know I'm walking some right?

im sorry u had such a rough nite. that would have scared me too!! hope the kids didnt make too much of a mess. how r u doing with newly post op? im still pre op- my date is sept 21st. and this morning im alittle frustrated. i spent the nite @ the sleep lab getting my cpap adjusted & trying new masks. not much sleep there. hope u feel better today!!!

WOW! I hope you have a better night tonight too lol! I am a bit worried about how my house will look when I come home from the hospital. You know, men just don't keep the house as clean as we do! hehee. Anyway, I wish you well and a speedy recovery ;)

Beth, I'm a single mom, sent the kids away for the weekend, but my house, OH what a disaster! My air conditioner in my bedroom leaked and flooded my bedroom while I was gone (forgot to turn it off) Mildew is growing on clothing that was piled in front of the window and there are mushrooms... yes, mushrooms growing out of the carpet!!! I'm too weak to get it all cleaned up but fortunately got the wet clothing pulled out today, rewashing it all now... all that's left is some REALLY heavy duty cleaning to get rid of the mushrooms... bleck! Any ideas? Rachel this is sooooooooo gross!

OMG- that's SO SO scary!!!!! please be careful! i overdid it today with my toddler too and my staples hurt so much. DON"T do laundry. if stuff is ruined, another couple days won't matter- that's a lot of lifting for a new banded lady. or call in a good friend to help. just be careful and remember to keep drinking!

Thanks Shana, yeah it's scary!! I haven't done laundry yet, had the boyfriend move the wet stuff out of the bedroom and to the laundry area and my mom is here this weekend and has been doing load after load after load the whole time she's been here, there aren't many casualties believe it or not, only a handfull of items are really beyond salvage which is amazing! Not sure what I'm going to do about my dresser though, gonna have to get someone to move/clean it to see if it can be saved. If not, when I manage to get a new place to live I'll have to add new bedroom set for myself to the list of things I need. HUGS! Rachel PS I overdid it with the kids today because no one else, at first, knew what to do to get the kids started with bowling. It was the first day of the league... I'm beat!

Rachel, I am so sorry you have had such a hard time! I had a similar issue...just had my D&C and decided to go to a friends block party. I was just sitting and behaving...but one of the teenagers was fooling around with my daughter, lifted her high in the air and plopped her in my lap before I could say anything!!! OUCH!! He did not know about my condition, but he almost felt as bad as I did. Almost!! I am not a single mom, but my hubby is gone a lot and when he is here, he is not able to be much help because of his obesity. I am afraid of doing too much because of having to do for the kids by myself. Please take care of yourself!! And don't worry about those ruined clothes...they would be too big in a couple weeks anyway!!! LOL Smile, Donna

Hey Donna, I know the whole D&C thing had to be a nightmare... I can only imagine how bad it must have felt to have a child plopped in your lap! My mom was here for the weekend helping me out, and she did all the wet laundry and folded it for me... looks like we only lost about 8 items total to permanant damage, I think that's pretty good to be honest! I'm trying to get through posts and get some rest... I'm actually tired today! HUGS Rachel