Where have I been?

I know it has been a very long time since I posted so I thought that I would make myself sit down and write down anything. Winter is actually more busy for me because my 13 year old plays hockey and we are continually on the run. Thank God we only have about a month left. Things have been getting progressively worse with my husband, but I think that we both love each other and want things to be ok- but we are just totally different people. I have been pretty depressed lately and am having a hard time getting out of this funk. As far as my weight goes I am still yo-yoing back and forth and it really bothers me. Sometimes I am 147 sometime 141. I would be very happy if I could get back down below 140. I am still hearing how skinny I am and that I need to gain some weight, but I don't see it thta way. Hopefully I will be getting a settlement fromwork for my back and maybe then I can afford some plastic surgery. I still haven't fixed my profile to the new version. I know that Paula posted how to change it once and I can't find the copy. If anyone has it can you please post it again so maybe I can do something constructive. I haven't posted in my profile for months- something that I promised myself I would never do- so I have to get back on track. Gotta start somewhere. Thanks, Christine