not sure what to do

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What kind of cocoa do you buy? does it mix in with the coffee? Sounds wonderful. I've been buying the flavored sugar free syrups, but this sounds better.

I usually buy Ghirardelli, it's in the baking aisle at my supermarket. I've tried others, I just make sure that it's high quality. When I get it home I mix equal parts cocoa and splenda in a tupperware so it's convienient. For coffee, I mix it with a little ho****er to make it syrupy so that it doesn't clump. I use it for hot chocolate as well with 1% milk and low carb whipped cream. micha

Micha I use to be obsessive about it but now it just seems like I just don't care but I do!!! I can eat a whole Taco Salad from Taco bell, I didn't think I would ever be able to do that again but I can. I can eat a cup of sausage and tomatoes, cup and half of chili with like 6 crackers and a small salad at one setting, oh yea with a cup of coffee and a brownie on the side. I am just asking for trouble. I am being honest on what I am eating because Iam being stupid and eating this stuff and the only way to help myself is to be honest of what I am doing to sabatoge myself. Before I leave work I am so hungry and for a while there I was eating a pepper jack string cheese and I counted out 10 wheatthins to eat, but then I said the heck with it and ended up with a bag of doritoes and ate them on the way home. I feel like there is something bothering me subcontusly and I am not admitting it but I don't know what it is because whatever it is its making me emotional eat. Its like I don't eat the small meals anymore I drink like 5 cups of coffee at work so I Don't eat breakfast, that is my breakfast!! Maybe I need to go see a shrink about eating disorder or something I don't know!! I just feel like I am going back to bad bad habits and its going to bring me into a bad funk!! errr Thanks for listening to me whine!!

Have you tried that knew slim fast. It is a knew kind. It keeps me full for 4-5 hrs. I love it . It is healthy and protein as well. That would be a good breakfast since you dont eat breakfast. You really need to eat breakfast. You are eating to much and you need to stop. protein makes you full. You need to put that first. And water log. Do what Paula says to do. I do that and it helps. Best Wishes Hugs Barb

Barb, They aren't the new one's with Dexatrim in them, are they? I'm not so sure that the Dexatrim would be good for your heart. Please check to see...I don't want you taking something that would be bad for you... Even if it keep you full for several hours. paula

Good Question, Thanks for thinking about that. This is called Slim Fast optima,From what I can read on the can it is not that kind. But I cant read the small writing so Im not sure. I will look into this. I dont think it is. Thanks Hugs Barb

It probably wouldn't hurt to talk to someone. I'm thinking about it as well. I always feel like I'm waiting - I think it's waiting to gain weight. After all everytime I lost weight before I ultimately gained it back. It scares me everyday. I don't want to go back, but it's always happened before and you know what dr phil says - past behavior predicts future behavoir - everytime I think I want to over eat that phrase pops in my head . This is going to be a never ending battle, but I'm hoping that if I stay consistant with my behaviors that this way of eating WILL become habit. **stepping off her soapbox** Hugs to you and feel free to email me anytime. Micha

What are you doing for exercise. I think that has really helped me. I eat much more than most folks on the list admit to, but I work out at least 4 mornings a week. I just get up before work and do it. I don't even hate it anymore--alghough I did when I started. It is just something I have to do. I've seen myself really progress. Consider buying Bob Green's total body make over and giving it a try for 3 months..... Don't beat yourself up, just stop eatting the stuff you shouldn't. Best of luck. Courtney

Michelle, I am in the same place you are. I have gained 7 pounds from July. I was obsessed with my weight and the surgery, according to friends and family. So I put away the scale and tried to live "normal" I didn't weigh myself every day, and started to just eat. I even gave up posting here all the time. Well.... you see what that got me. So Monday I decided to go back to the way it was when I first had the surgery. I weigh myself every morning. I know that it goes up and down and can live with that. I also have started back exercising every day. Monday - Wednesday was very rough... today I feel great. The last is I am back tracking my food and exercise on fitday.com. Yesterday I watched what I ate and was shocked to see that I had put away 1373 calories.... OMG.... that was with being careful. So obviously I am not good at meal planning without some help. I have also set up getting back to support group. I had to get my surgeon to start a group on another day other than Tuesday, I am looking forward to that again. So my first advice is don't go away from this support... Then get back to basic's. Become obsessed again. I gave myself a short term goal of two weeks and am psyched when I make it through they day. You did it before and you can do it again. donna