So bad here

My heart is worse than I thought. My Doctor said if I drink again. I would not live another 2 years. This is the info he sent my pcp. and my pcp wants me in rehab asap. So my husband made me a appoint for next week.(Thurs) So looks like im going away.... But Im ready to get help. I know I havent drank in a over a week. But I still crave it and want it. And know I will beneift from rehab and counceling. You guys this is my life. He said the left side is so weak and it is so enlarged. I also have to see a lung doctor because my oxygen is low. I am okay!!!! I did cry but I know what I need to do. I have been dealing with this for years. Now it has just caught up with me. My other appt is nov 22 with my Cardi I will know what he intends to do. For those out there dealing with allot of stress. Please stop. I was dealing with this my whole life. My job I think did me in. I had alot of responsiblity working on boeing air craft landing parts as a machinist. Money is not worth it, I worked 12 hour shift 6 days a week. Please learn from me. Life is so short. Live it happy, do what you have to do to be happy. You only have one heart !!! I will be fine. Im a fighter. and will give it my all to live to be a old woman. I mean real old like 90 Fingers crossed !!!!! 'Hugs to all Barb

Barb, Sending lots of Prayers and postive thoughts your way. Do what you gotta do to take care of yourself. Sandy

Barb my thoughts will be with you. Good luck keep your chin up. Your life is just beginning girl. Tammy O

Barb, You are right you are a fighter and you will be ok. You do what you have to do and make yourself better. I know that rehab is not going to be easy for you- but you can do it, just know that we will all be thinking about you every day, wishing you the best and praying for you. Will you have an address to mail you letters? Let me know and I will write to you. Best of luck and big hugs, Christine

Barbie, You can do this, If you wern't ready for rehab you would not be clean and sober a week already. Do what needs done and remember we are all here pulling for you Hugs and prayers, Shel

Barb, KNOW YOU are ALWAYS in my thought through this difficult struggle. I hope that you know YOU CAN Get a hold of those cravings, get the support and strength you need and ALWAYS know the support is HERE TOO. Here is my email address if you want: [email protected]. My heart is here for you. Take CARE of YOU!! hugs, jacqueline

Good to hear your going in. It sounds like your ready. Take the time to really listen and talk, you can do this. When it gets real bad think about how much you have accomplished already. You are a fighter and a good person. You deserve to be healthy and happy. We are all here for you if you need anything.... let one of us know. donna

Hugs and prayers are going your way!! We are your support and know that while you are away we all will be praying for you and the strength to get through this time in your life. Make that promise to yourself that you will get through this one day at a time and you will succeed!! Take care and know we are only an email away May many watch over you!!

Hey Barb, I'm glad to read that your spirit is mostly up and not down. It's this kind of attitude that will help you to heal. Keep us all posted as to how things are going. You know we're here for you. Paula

Barb - I lift you in prayer daily. You're a strong woman and I know you can beat this. Micha