I have fallen off the candy wagon

I knew that I was going to have a hard time this year with Halloween because I do not dump. I never expected it to be this bad. I do not believe that I have eaten anything BUT candy for the last 2 weeks at least. I have given into my soda craving and replaced all water with soda- I am even waking up in the middle of the night and eating candy and soda. I have gained about 5 pounds in the last month. I see myself on a major down slide. I know that things are much worse for some people on this site, but I am going through a major depression. I am thinking of dropping out of school, I haven't been talking to most of my friends for one reason or another, I am having a hard time with my kids, and my marriage is a mess. I feel very alone- I guess that says it all. I haven't been able to get in to see my counselor in about a month or so and I have only gone to one support group meeting since surgery. I am tired all the time and I am not sure if it is because I am eating so badly or because I am depressed. Guess I just need a kick in the butt or maybe a friend or two. It is so hard to get off this rollercoaster I have let myself get on, and I don't really know where to start. Christine

Chris , Yes this is a roller coaster. The candy is possibly your problem. You need protein to funtion and feel good. Your running yourself down. I was doing that also with the candy. I was really in a tired depressed state. I understand how you feel. But we all go threw this Both Donna,s (Shel Is one of the tuff ones on here)I have been threw it. Maney times so have you. and you pull threw. It seems like my life has took a complete change. How I look how I act how I dress. Everything has changed about me. Dont drop out of school. Keep going. My marraige, Family, everything has changed. Sometimes I think people dont like me skinny. They liked me more fat and down. My grandkids live with me. I understand about the kids. I am so glad my daughter stepped up to the plate. I am to weak. It is hard being a mother and in school and feeling bad. Just try and get out of the candy and pick up on you vitiams and b12 and protein. Get some blood work done. Come on here more often. We do not see you much. We all love you and care about you !!!!!! Get yourself together Christine. You are a beautiful woman. And can do anything you want. Try talking to your husband and ask him for more help with the kids. Just dont give up. Hugs your way Barb

Christine, Yes to everything BARB said: She said it all but I wanted to encourage you to be here on the forum to let us encourage you. I totally get the depression thing...I am seeking a counselor quick( But over here in Germany that is not easy!) But look at what you have accomplished!! Your pic is wonderful and you look fantastic> Go back to the basics: Protein, Water and vitamins: Exercise( Makes you feel great!, Well, ok after you feel terrible, then you feel good, honest) Talk to your closest friends and get some support: Heck, talk with us here and get support. The emotional part of this surgery can pull you back to were we started. We gotta hold strong and stick together and get all the emotional support we need. I know the Candy thing is a big deal for me right now( God knows why?) But he won't ever give us more than we can handle. You can do this. Stay in school, get to a support meeting, call the damn counselor and get an appointment, try to talk to the Darling Husband and get more help...talk with those dear friends for help. Get what you need. PROTEIN, WATER, Viatmins. Get the candy out of the house. GO for a walk. Listen to some good music. Take a nice bubble bath. Christine, you have been such an inspiration for people here. I have missed your posts and am happy you are back. Stick with US.. Get support here and know you are missed when you don't post. Know I am thinking of you and I am here to support you as much as I can. Look at Shelly's post about Candy: Or was it Donna? Anyway, The new Mantra: NO CANDY!! Join us in NO CANDY!! Take care, hugs, jacqueline

I am thinking of you today! Be strong...exercise, eat protein, drink water. Pam

Hi Christine, Sorry your feeling so down and unfocused. Go take a nice hot bath tonight and and think about what you want, not what you may or may not be able to get accomplished. When each of us started this journey we wanted to get this surgury and get our health back..We did what we had to do and prayed alot that this would happen , and here we all set over a yr out from that goal of getting the surgery. They say that God doesn't give you more then you can handle, even if it seems like it at the moment. I have also noticed that when I ask for strenth I don't just wake up one day stronger,I end up in some situation that once I get through it I will be stronger but I have to willing to go through it and learn from it. Same thing goes for patience. Don't give in to the candy , or the depressed overwhelmed feelings..Remember as long as you keep breathing you WILL get through this. Each time you want a piece of candy go get 4 oz of water and drink it,Each time you want a soda think about how the carbination is going to make you feel bloated and unwell, and how the sodium in it will make you retain the water becouse your not getting in enough water to flu**** all out, and then go drink another 4 oz of water,Soon the candy and the sodium will be flushed from your system and you'll be feeling better and more focused. I know this becouse I'm going through it now. It just seemed easier to grab a tootsie roll (or whatever)real quick walking past it then to go all the way to the kitchen and get something healthy. We all asked for strength to avoid the candy and we all got a whole lot of candy put in our path were we ment to eat it? nope, it was put there to help us build that strength we asked for.....Look at it and thank god for the opertunity to build strength and then walk past it and know your now a stronger healthier person. Focus on one little thing at a time and life won't seem so bad in a few weeks. Go back to the basics..Protine , water, and excersize. We didn't start where we are at but luckely with this tool we are now able to get back on track as fast as we got off...Now if only the rest of our life was that easy. We love you, we miss you, and most of all we SUPPORT you, we are all human and need each other please remember that and vent here often. Hugs, Shel P.S. I'm not always as strong as I seem...lol

Good morning Christine, the timing of your post couldnt be any better. Please take things one step at a time. If you have 1/2 hour.... take time to really reflect. Maybe a bubble bath or something. You have done a great job up to now. You should be very proud of yourself. The biggest concern I see is don't drop from school. That is life changing. It opens up so many thing for you. Second try your best to eat better and exercise, once you do you will have more energy and start to feel better. Coming out of my depression I have decided to take it in small steps. I will do well for today. When I could handle that I went on to make it to Nov. 25th. I will then see how well I am doing and continue one step at a time As Barb had posted we have all been through a lot. I had dropped away from this and other support. My family support had told me that I was to obsessed with my WLS. The ending results--- I have gained 7 pounds, was very depressed and lost faith in who I was. I now realize how important everything I do is about staying with my WLS program. I wish I could snap my fingers and make it better for you and everyone else here, but it is all about the internal works of oneself.... good luck and keep trying just remember 5 pounds isn't life or death... it was a minor slip. Now get back with the program and think of it as a lesson learned. donna

Hi Christine, I'm a couple days late in responding...been away with kids out of school. I hear you about the sweets, kids and stress! First of all, take a HUGE deep breath... Second, get the damm junk out of the house, you or the family DON'T need it! And when you do dump it, make sure you cover it really well with dish soap so you can't get back at it. Third, Don't beat yourself up. This is a set back, yes, but it's BACK...it's OVER. Let it be...and move on. Now that the junk is gone, and you're not beating yourself up anymore..time to focus on what's really going on and deal with it. Get the kids in line. You're/we're the parents here. *I threw my kid's Halloween candy out two days after because they were SO badly treating me, that that was their punishment. They didn't need all that anyways*... They are only 8 & 6 and I refuse to let them walk all over me. Those days are gone. I'm growing a backbone and am not letting them talk back, feel like they're my friend and get away with anything they do..plus, I give in after saying no...and that's bad. As far as hubby goes..what the heck is his problem? He has a beautiful wife who's worked SO hard to become a better person...Tell him if he doesn't shape up...he'll be easily shipped out! School is hard...I can't imagine a mom going back to school and dealing with all the family stuff and school too...it's hard...try to stick it out...if you don't pass this time, you can always take the course again. Friends...ahhhh...friends....I thought I had made a wonderful friend two years ago..she's terribly heavy (I found my surgeon thru her brother who had surgery) and is also going thru the steps towards surgery (but I'm not convinced she really wants it)...she rarely calls me now that I'm smaller....when we do talk, it's not to make plans or to get together...it's one sided on her part. She tells me about her life and her family and never asks how I or the family is. Oh, well. I can't worry about that. I feel that we make only one or two really true friends in life. And they are hard to come by. I have one friend who lives four miles away, but only see her about once a year. She's in school and has a family and is very busy. We all are. But, we email and talk when we can and we still have that bond that I know will be there for a long time. Friends will come around, or they won't..But, like a marriage, friendships take time and work... Now...for getting back on track..you've got to (I have to also) get back to the basics again. Do a few days of just protein shakes and no carbs except what's in the shakes. You need to drink as much calorie free liquids as possible. You need to flush your body out of all the toxins. Take an Omega 3 vitamin/supplement. It'll help with the detox. Bu****er/fluids are the key. Try to get a gallon in a day. Someone here must have the Plateau buster diet. It's all protein foods. If it ain't on the list, you can't have it. Plain as that. Do that, after the few days of protein shakes and you'll be back on track. And, hopefully not be craving the carbs. I cannot believe how I feel after I eat a lot of sugar...It puts me into a coma practically. I'm in a fog, daze, and am in an ugly mood, which makes me parent all the worse. We can change our behaviors. We can do this. We did it at the start, we can start again., That's the glory of having choices. The fun is over, now it's back to basics and WORK! Paula

Hi Christine, you're going through a bad time aren't you honey? This surgery did not fix our heads!! We have to do that. Or get s0me help from someone who can help us. Christine, try getting back to basics. forget that you are able to eat candy and just put it in your mind that you will dump!! You will not test it to see if you do or not. You can do this Christine, You have come so far, accomplished so much. This is a tough time for us -- we are looking good, got lots of weight off, and feel 'normal'. Well guess what! We're not normal. We have to fight this every single day. Any one who tells you that it is a piece of cake (sorry for that!!) is kidding themselves. It isn't. But -- we can do it. We have a tool that can help us. You still have your tool. Use it, listen to it, get back to basics. You can do it, I know you can. Love you Christine, and I support you and am here for you any time!! Like I said, we're all going through this in one way or another!! love donna