practice what I preach

ok heres the deal..I can help everyone but myself why is that? I can tell everyone else what the right thing is to do to lose weight but I sabatoge myself. I notice this in everything I do. Knowing this how do I fix myself!!! I know chocolate is a bad taboo, but I eat it anyway. I am starting to get a roll now because I have gained 8 lbs! I know I should not be eating more but I do it anyway. AM I stressed out yes I am, and what better way to get rid of it than excercise!! But guess what I don't want to do it alone, so I choose not to do it instead I go to sleep!! Are these bad habits returning? Is there something that I am not wanting to let go of that is making me do this? I don't know and I know no one has the answers for me but I feel like I am beating myself up or someone else needs to do it for me. I am acutally a postive person towards other people but to myself I'm not WHY???? I have my one year checkup next week and I plan to talk to the dr about these feelings.

Michelle, darn it dont mess this up.... You have been through way to much to have it not work... ditch the chocolate.. and get ur butt moving...to many carbs will tire you out also..... Come on we have all come to far...

Thats the problem I know what I am doing but I don't do it. I look on here everyday and read what everyone goes through and I feel the same way and know what they all are going through, but something doesn't stick in my head to say WOAH!! STOP!! AM I just stupid or what!!! No I know I am not..I am just frustrated. Since MArch I have lost the same 5 lbs and gained the same 5 lbs. I have always been overweight so I just figured maybe those fat cells are just regrouping again in my mid area and its just gonna be that way no matter what. Where have you been I have not seen you post for awhile, glad to see you back!!!

I didnt mean to be so hard on you. I am not doing well either. I told you what i say to my self. Just Remember last year at this time and what you were going through. This was the hardest part for us all..I think the first month was the worst. Take your self back. this month i havent lost anything either. I have been eating alot more and alot more fruit. which before the surgry i would have been eating alot worse and drinking alot of soda.(my biggest downfall) My doctor isnt always clear with me about what I should be doing now, just like with the soda, so i just avoid it. But i drink coffee all day... which isnt good but i feel like i need to drink.. heres what i ate yesterday..2 cups of milk for morning, a handful of chips, a hamburger with half a bun, beef barley soup and cheese chunks, some grapes, a peach, some more grapes, 2 small pieces of choc fudge, a piece of meatloaf. 1/2 cup of milk. 3 pieces of hard candy. so see i am not doing so well either. Today i am doing better b/c its my anniversary today. so i didnt even drink milk this morning b/c i do so bad later on. this starts my new year today. So just try. You deserve it.

Hi Michelle, I can't preach I eat chocolate too but only allow myself to do it 3 days a month (thanx aunt flo) but if it's not one of those 3 days I just walk past it thinking this many more days, and go on with my day,When I do eat something like that I know how the ability to know how much time i need to make up on the stepper or bike or walking to get rid of it and find a balance. Listen to me ...YOU ARE NOT ALONE !! We all come here to this board for support, sympathy, encouragement, and everything else. It helps me stay on track thinking what would so n so say if i posted this or would this person do this or that. It also helps to think about the young ones(pre ops and newbies) watching us as an example of what they want thier future to be or what it could be, I'm trying very hard to not be the poster child for "what NOT to do" or at least I was when I started all this, now I'm just human I make mistakes but the important thing is to learn from those mistakes. I'm going for a walk tonight at 5:30, it's going to be a 20 min walk...will you walk with me? Come on just 20 min at 5:30 thats all I ask and think about how wierd will I look walking through town talking to you all by meself just to come home and find out you didn't do the walk......lol Hugs, Shel

Hi Michelle, Boy you are not alone. I just don't understand it. WHY do we do this to ourselves? This is really some wicked sickness. I can't even begin to tell you about my day today. I have NEVER had a day like this since before surgery. I am so ashamed of myself. So ashamed I wasn't even going to answer you post because I'm so embarrassed. I really don't know what is wrong with us. I work with the public and every day I receive so many praises. last night I had people come in just to see me because they heard how great I was doing. so why do we Sabatoge ourselves? I know HOW to do the program but today I CHOOSE NOT TO DO THE PROGRAM. I am going to post my message to you on the board so everyone else could see that I, too, am doing the same sabatoge. Thanks for being brave and posting this. Koukla

Michelle, Don't mess up now. You've done too well to sabotage yourself in this way. Find sugar free low carb chocolate to eat. Do you have Trader Joe's in your area? They have a good bar that tastes creamy. If you eat too much, it'll make you poop, so be careful! If I have a taste for chocolate, I only let myself go out at that craving moment and buy the smallest bag of M&M's or candy bar I can find. I eat a few and put the rest away for the next time. And, so far, I've been ok with it. Don't bring the stuff in the house in the first place...If someone in your family wants it, tell them to go out and eat it outside of the house, that it's off limits. They don't need it anyways. Can you get yourself to a support group meeting? You can learn so much from them. I don't have the chance to go often, but when I do, I feel so much better. Posting here and on my state board where there are a lot of patients from my surgeon helps a lot too. Can you go swimming? It's fun and there's a lot of people in the class. I find that my mornings when I swim now are fun and I feel great afterwards. Hang in there. Posting about it was your first step in admitting that you have this problem and need a boost to get you out of it. Paula

Okay,,,,, Ive been threw this same thing. I still go threw it. What we are going threw is the only thing our body knows at this point. When we get bored stressed lonely or any excuse we eat !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went shopping for food last week. I only shopped for myself. Im tired of worrying about every one else. I got me my favorite sandwich meat... Little packages of cheese. all my favorite yogarts. Sugar free hard candies for snacks. Sugar free puddings banannas. I beefed up the protein. Started back on my excercise program. I got my favorite beans and made a pot last night. Paying today. Also like Heidi said Carbs make you hungary and feel like crap. Remember when your hungry just go for the protein. I picked up some honey ham Yummm makes a great snack. that with cheese and a slice of tomatoe and alittle mustard. Just work on this. And you will be back on the losing side. Paula always preaches water logging. I have been doing this. It seems to help. I think you are going threw some kind of depression. Maybe you might want to see your Dr. That is what I had to do. because I was having head hunger so bad. I felt like I couldnt control myself. I wish you all the luck. Lets all of us strugging get back on the program. Get our selves in shape this year for next year. I know how you feel. It is like before surgery you have no control. Hugs your way Barb