Do I need glasses :)

I am certainly having an issue with my eyes! I look at myself, and I think I look larger than other people who are wearing the same size clothes that I am. What's with that? I am wearing a size 14 pant--on a really good day and the belly god is smiling down on my I can get a 12 on. I am wearing a xl or xxl shirt. I have a good bit of skin hanging. When I look down I have the lovely apron of skin--that is just disgusting! My husband tells me to think at least it isn't full of chubba any longer. And I am very thankful for that! Maybe I just don't look the way I thought I would look thinner---maybe now my "apron" is disproportionate to the rest of my body. My goal for plastic surgery is to wait until July 2007. I want to give myself enough time to stablize in my weight so that I get the best results. And, my disability insurance will not pay me until then--considered pre-exisiting because of the gastric bypass. Am I just always going to have body image issues? No matter what weight I am at? Am I just one of those people who are never happy? I never really have thought of myself as being that insecure...maybe I just need something to fixate on Was my weight ... now my apron GROSS love ya girls Tracy 328/163/155

Well, I can totally relate to you. I bought a pair of pants in a size 3/4, and I tell you, I feel like they changed the sizes. I think I look obese. And oh that apron........ I have one too. People at my job tell me I need help and one of my closet friends emails me at work to see If I ate. I weigh 140, and never want to weigh 254 again. I don't know what it is fear? totally supporting you here!

I can relate. I also have an 'apron'. I took a picture of myself 'naked' one day and thought I look like a candle that melted ! Boobs hanging , the apron, I wonder what hubby sees in me.. I have always had an apron but now it hangs lower . I have always had low self esteem but with this weight loss I feel like things are possible. I have a hernia so hopefully when I see my surgeon we can discuss what can be done body wise. And honestly , I never thought I would be considering a boob job but I wouldn't mind them being " hiked up" abit... maybe that would help with my back problems also. I wonder what size I would really be in if I did get rid of my belly and apron ? Sandy