funny story

I have been very seriously bummed out today. I had gained 3 pounds due to eating poorly for the last 4 days Thursday-Sunday - drinking etc. I didn't think I had done that bad, but I wasn't perfect. When I got dressed for work I put on jeans (a casual day) and they were tight- all day I kept beating myself up- I couldn't believe that my 14's fit that bad. I had almost put these in the outgrown pile. I had at one point gotten a pair of tens and they were tight but I was able to wear them to the Pats game. To think that in 4 days 6 drinks would get me back to feeling bad and over stuffed. Well after beating myself up all day today, I finally went up stairs just now to slip in my PJ's. The jeans that I was so pissed about were my size 10's..... Here I was convinced that I had eaten myself back into a tight 14..... It is a funny kind of sad story. These evil voices that I have lived with so long came back real strong, I need to fight the fight; I am not a bad person. I am human and pretty. I needed to vent. I know that a lot of people are on vacation so this is more just to get it out and let those who are here realize that your not the only one out there talking bad to yourself--- we are our own worst enemies. d

You wouldn't think that 3 pounds would affect you that much. Are you sure it's no****er weight? I drink mixed drinks usually on saturday if we go out... and usually sunday is mylowest weight of the week. it's like it completely drains me. It's only 3lbs and if your scale is anything like mine if varies some days... I try not to weigh my self... if it is up i just think to myself...My fingers are pretty tight today it must be water... try drinking lots of water today and see if that helps..and think if you have been eating salty stuff too..You are still doing good.. smile and face this one day at a time

I weigh everyday and have since about 2 month out. I find that my weight fluctuates by about 3 pounds and it makes almost no difference what I eat. My guess is it is water, but who knows. A few weeks ago I was up 4 pounds...which really bugged me, but it went down in a few days of "normal" eatting. I'm trying to decide what the amount for me should be to trigger cutting back...I'm thinking 5 pounds..... One other thing I think is interesting is that the amount of weight between sizes is so different at the lower end. For me 8 pounds was the difference between a size 10 jean and a size 14 jean....where 30 pounds was the difference between a size 20 and a size 22.

Donna, That really was a cute story. I know exactly how you feel. I am in size tens now, but I went to a clothing store (can't remeber which one of course) and tried to put a pair of tens on and I might as well tried on a pair of leather pants. They were so tight I couldn't breathe, so I automatically thought that I gained weight. When I got home I tried my tens onand they fit fine. But the whole way home I was beating myself up for gaining weight. You are absolutley right, we are our worst enemies. I guess it is a good thing we have each other. Christine

Donna, Well what a relief it must have been when you figured it out. I know what you mean about the voices in our heads. I don't even give myself credit for fitting into smaller clothes when I do. I bought a pair of pants in an 8 and was convinced I was just having a skinny day when I bought them. I have even avoided wearing them because I'm afraid I'll try to put them on and they won't fit! Well, I actually wore them yesterday and they still fit, thank goodness! Its so hard to get those evil voices out of our heads. Keep up the fight though (I think we're all winning)...

The story about the size 8 jeans is soooo true. I was that way with my 10's. I will by something and then hang it on the door not really sure that I can actually wear it. Now my 10's are part of my regular wardrobe. Of course I keep telling myself I can hardly wait until I am a "real" size 10- not just the one pair that I found that fit. I am almost to that point though. When trying on cloths I grab 10's and 12's. Some 10's fit and sometimes the 12's are to small. I guess we shouldn't worry so much about the numbers. It does beat the hell out of the tight size 24's from my past. donna

Hi donna, we reallly do ourselves in, dont we. We don't need anyone else to be rude to us -- we do it all!! I had a Harley t-shirt on today that was a hand me down from one of my friends, and I was at a building and some guy got in the elevator and said 'did you ride your Harley today' and I didn't feel like chatting so I just said no. And then he said what kind do you have. So I said I dont really have one a friend gave it to me. And he said, you're so beautiful you look like you belong on a harley!!! Ha ha (oh yeah, forgot to mention, he was about 75!!) But the message is you can only ride a Harley if you're beautiful so -- hello my beautiful girlfriend!!! Missed you!! love donna