Doctors Appt.**~

Its so easy to fall back.... I find myself nibbling too thinking ooooooooh this wont hurt but it does. I think we need to go back to the sept posts cuz they are still here... and read what we wrote then.. when we first started and just see if we can find the person we were then emotionally. I know we all started out pretty much thinking the same.. maybe we find some encouragement there and it will help us now.. I know i am happy now...... but i let myself fall too often

Heidi, my dear, you are doing great, you are beautiful whether you smile or not, and I think you can be happy whether you smile or not!! Maybe he was just trying to be friendly or something, But I do think it's true that 'we' have been neglected for so long that we don't put ourselves out there with a jubliant face. Now that happens to not be be - I smile so much I'm sure people think something is wrong with me!! So your doc would probably say 'wipe that silly grin off your face, you're not there yet!!' love donna

thank you donna, I have smiled so much my face has hurt! I really do think I smile more now. But usally at the doctors i look like a deer in the head lights... lol...i really do ... cuz i am always scared he is gonna yell at me and tell me i am not doing good.. my eyes are always in shock when he walks in.. yes that is me!