I feel so sad, mad and frustrated with myself.. Help!

Hello my September family! I am 8.5 months out and was down 104 lbs. two weeks ago. I have been getting all of my water, protien, and exercise in daily and was "really working it"! I would have a little "treat" here and there but followed the protocol most often. About 3 weeks ago, i injured my mid back (BADLY) and really pulled a muscle. OUCH! I have been in constant pain for 4 weeks now. I have been to the chiropractor, the doctor, had an x-ray taken, got mild osteo perosis and arthritis in my back, major muscle strain, Got so bad they put me on vicodin and soma for the pain and inflamation. It has been aweful! BUt here is the BAD part.... Or should I say the worst part....????????? Since then, I was directed not to work out until my back heals, so on top of not being able to work out (which is something that I NEVER did before in my life and now feel good about) I have started eating all kinds of SH*T! Comfort foods if you will, everything that I should not be eating.. Further more, i used to have some mild dumping and now it seems I can eat just about what ever I want and not get sick! I DONT LIKE THAT! I just want to eat, and I do. I have gained 4 lbs in the past week and a couple of days!!!!!!!!! I dont want to do this and I am so ashamed and upset with myself. I have come to far to start screwing up now or EVER! I know what I need to do and am praying for the strength to get back "on track" and do what I know works for us. I just needed to tell on myself and tell the truth. Am I alone in this temporary struggle? I say temporary because I have to believe that this is what it is. I need your love and support, please help and check in with me. Hugs, Shireen

Sweet Shireen, honey, stop being so hard on yourself. You've recognized what you're doing, and that's half the problem. You're doing the old emotional eating thing that we all are so familiar with. Yup, they did a bunch of stuff to our stomach but unfortuantely that didn't translate to our heads!! We still have that battle to deal with. Don't worry about the exercising, just concentrate on getting the eating in control. I mean you can't do exercise so cut yourself some slack on that. Get back to basics -- go to real high protein, stay away from sweets, carbs, the devil's food!! Go back to how you ate at the very beginning. Be careful. You still have your tool, your small stomach, and now you need to listen to the signs. You can do it. You've come so far - worked so hard. This isn't going to get the best of us Shireen. I don't know about you, but for me, this is my last chance at this weight loss thing. If I don't succeed here, I don't have a chance anywhere else. I've done it all!! So it will work - you'll work it -- you can do it!! I know you can. Have a good night and post again on Friday, or tomorrow, and let us know how you're doing. Love you shireen - you are looking so H O T H O T !! donna

Donna, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR REPLY.... REALLY! I appreciate the support, kindness and love that you sent to me and it does make a difference! Thank you, and I will check in with you on Friday! Hugs, me Shireen

Just looked at your profile... YOu look AMAZING! Wow! Wow! Wow! Shireen

Hi Shireen, thank you so much! I remember a few weeks ago when I read your profile and saw your pictures, I was just so impressed. You're a beauty!! I hope you are going to have a good day today. I'm thinking of you! love donna

Donna, I know it is one day at a time and today (so far) it has been a good day and my food is on track! Thank you so much for your support and kind words.... Love Shireen

Hi Shireen, I've been thinking about you alot today!! I was hoping for a really good day for you. Sounds like so far it has been - although it's still early in California! I think that is so good that Jen lives close to you, or works close to you, and you guys can get together. There is someone on this board, Jewels N, that I meet for lunch, and who lives close to me and had the same doctor. it's a nice bonding. We're just about a week apart on surgery dates and it's good to compare notes!! You know one other thing you might do if you aren't doing it already is to track your food on fitday. com. That's a real good reality check on what you are actually taking in. But your pouch is working, you just need to pay attention to what it's saying. Don't graze - that's a big problem (listen to me, like I don't do that for crying out loud!!). Anyway, I know you can do it!! Look, already it's been just one day and you are tracking already. Check in again if you have time in the next few days! I'll be looking for you!! love donna

When I get hungry I grab something healthy. A Bananna. Strawberrys with yogart over them. I will make oatmeal up. I can eat anything I want to eat to. I choose not to. Not that I havent made wrong choices because I have. But the farther I get along the more I just dont go for the bad. I dont want it. I made my mind up. and thats what you need to do. Keep healthy foods at home go them. They will fill you up just like the junk food well. You do look beautiful. This is our saying here ( Stop It ) Hugs Barb

Thanks Barb, I am going to "STOP IT" now.... Thank you......

hmm -- stop it!! Words of a wise woman!!! love donna