YAY! I'm going to weigh myself again next Monday, though I know I'll accidentally stand on the scale at least once before then. Grace

Sounds like a scrumptious breakfast. As much as I love breakfast foods, I still cant eat them till later in the day so breakfast for me is lunch. I do drink loads of water and a dutch chocolate protein shake with fatfree milk, a banana and a tsp of lowcarb peanut butter from 6-9am each day. I find when I stop losing for weeks that I need to eat more! I exercise 4 times weekly. I am scared though about having to miss the exercise for 4-6 weeks after my upcoming abdomnioplasty. ULGH! I am one year postop tomorrow. YEAH! Leslie 312/165now/170was goal **still need a new pic, is that me?????

Hi Grace, Just curious here, when you say you have a crunch bar, is that a specific type of protein bar? And when you have turkey at lunch, how much are you eating? Thanks for your posts! I'm really trying to do better this week, thanks to your challenge! Tonya 368/208/? -160lbs

I guess you could say I am stressed. I also don't know how to handle it. I am internalizing alot. I'm not bored as far as having nothing to do - but I do feel unfulfilled. I'll talk to the support group in two weeks but I really wonder how I will manage with having the support group two hours away. I would love to post here more, but I have been drowning in life. I work more than full time at one place, teach four classes at the college, take two masters classes, have a 17 year old son and 17 and 15 year old step-daughters, I have a fiance who says I neglect him and I have friends and family that want time with me. I'm spread a little thin and I have my schedule booked EVERY DAY from 8am to 10pm M-F and 8am to 1pm Saturday. Sat afternoon and Sunday are the only time I have to do homework. Don't forget the exercise I need to be doing. Sigh. I am committed to this schedule (via contract****il December 23rd. I love teaching but I am freaking out over my schedule. I get done at 10pm and find myself drawn to Kareoke or trivia at the bar to decompress. Then I think I look strange if I just order water. Sorry guys... I am REALLY negative right now and I should be jumping for joy. Even the droves of men checking me out are nothing but a nuisance. I went out on Saturday night with girlfriends for a bachelorette party. I had more self confidence than the size 4 girls with no extra skin and I guess it attracts men like flies. I find myself doing mean things... like a lion playing with its food. I am not a mean person but I almost feel like these hunky arrogant guys deserve it. They are throwing themselves at me .... NOW... I think... "you wouldn't have noticed I was in the room a year ago" and then I mess with them. They flirt and I catch them looking at my breasts and I duck down and say "My eyes are up here". I am very in their face and I don't care. I don't want any of them but I feel the urge to toy with them. I'm wondering if I am turning into a nasty b**** as the fat melts off. Then I am alot nicer to the shy guys that aren't being arrogant jerks. Am I confusing or what? I almost feel like flirting with the shy, nice guys that don't think they have a chance with a pretty girl just to give them a boost, but the problem is... I am not available so it would just hurt them in the long run. OK... so I guess that was an overshare. My psych is going to have to put in overtime on me at the support meeting. LOL OOOH... on the upside, my scale finally reached an all time low and I am wearing size 10 suits. RNY 9/7/04 330/174/140 (or so)

I'm happy to see I'm not alone, but sorry to hear it as well. Sigh. I should only post when I am not so negative. I hear you on the lack of motivation. I think the only way I will do the exercise is if I put it in my insane schedule. The way I schedule class or work or Dr. appts. I hear you on the pissed off at ourselves. BTW... I would have said no to jumping jacks... way too disturbing for me with the deflated breasts. I would have been afraid they would have "jumped" out.