Hi Dawn, I am so happy for your success !, It is an inspiration for us pre-ops (12/5/ 05)when, fear tries to creep in I'm looking forward to the many positive changes I will experience in my life after surgery. Vanessa

Yesterday the Principal of my school was telling me how wonderful I look --tall and thin--I told her that when I look in the mirror I still see myself at 265 lbs. I am now wearing a size 12 SLIM in jeans and still feel fat when I look at myself in the mirror. This thought has been developing moreso now that I am at a normal weight than it has in the past. I am also deathly afraid that I will gain back all the weight I lost especially now since I have bought all new clothes for the summer and winter seasons. I worry too because I think if I were to gain weight back and need to wear larger clothes my DH would have a fit since I have given away ALL of my before clothes and now own nothing but my smaller clothes. I think I am going to have to discuss this feeling more in detail at my next therapy session because it is beginning to scare me. When I get on the scale especially when I think I have gained weight the scale tells me I am still the same weight 150. Why do I think this way? I also worry that I am eating too much and will stretch my pouch to the point where I will devour food like I use to. I still follow the rules of water, protein, vitamins. Could this be because now I am within normal limits with respect to weight and BMI? Am I beginning to go ? Marianne

Hi Gang I am thinking about placing an order for Stallone high protein pudding and would like to get feedback on what you rate it on a scale of 1-10. How are the flavors? I am thinking of ordering the variety pack-- Vanilla Chocolate Bananna Lemon Any and all feedback is greatly appreciated! Enjoy the beautiful weather here in the North East this weekend! Hugs Marianne

I have noticed people that knew me before are really proud. New people that don't know my situation feel a little uncomfortable towards me and the way they see me eating. When people talk about being overweight I try to empathize and usually the response is, "how do you know--you are so skinny?" I think--if you only knew. Sometimes I tell new people at work--sometimes I don't--it depends. I find overweight people are a little hostile towards me whether they know my situation or not. Also in myself at work and really anywhere else I am so much more confident. I stand up for myself. I do more and I have no problems being the star-player in certain situations (like when i get compliments for coming up with creative nursing interventions). I have more energy and am much more positive than I used to be as well. I have seen this rub off on other people..and again I have seen it annoy others as well. I just try to do my own thing and I no longer feel undeserving of any of my accomplishments at work, school or anywhere else! Hope that helps!! -KT

hey girl! i wish you well. you are in my prayers! so glad this has happened for you!! -kt