Embarrasing: Eating Junk

Does anyone find that they can eat junk and not really get sick. Ex. Pizza or chocolate or whatever your item was pre-op. I wanted to post this before but did'nt want to get blasted. I'm 80 to 85lbs down and scared. I'm thinking of joining Weigh****chers for the THIRD time in my life or doing South Beach. I SWORE up and down that I would not stick junk in my mouth and yet here I am. Most of the time I'm good...its just my schedule and not planning I guess. I leave work and go straight to school some nights of the week and can only eat in the car as by the time I get to school I have class. I am so upset and desperate PLEASE HELP me. I know the weight can all go back on...I'm not sure phsycially how ..but I do know that. Please don't blast me I'm upset enough.

aw hun, we're your buds, no one's here to beat you up, besides you're doing a pretty good job of that yourself! this surgery's nothing but a tool, don't you wish you had a buck for every time you heard that? but it's so true. we were all obese for a reason, before the surgery. the tool can't wor****il we discover what precipitated the overeating (stress, comfort, whatever) and find something to substitute. you can't rely on getting sick to make you stick with the program. you found the strength to choose this tool, now you're going to have to dig deep within yourself to find the strength to make the right choices. you've lost 80-85 pounds so you're doing something right! when was the last time you lost that much weight?! give yourself some credit and don't be so hard on yourself. have you considered therapy? i'm not talking long term, but you might want to consider an appointment or two with a therapist who specializes in weight loss/self esteem issues. were you hiding behind the weight? concerned about how your relationships might change if you continue to lose? you sound like you lead a hectic life. are you making yourself a priority sometimes? going to a support group? finding time to exercise? just some thoughts . . . cherilyn, you deserve to be happy! don't sabotage yourself! think about these things and check back in and let us know how you're doing sweetie! ((((((((hugs)))))))), sandy

First, stop doing this to yourself. Stop mentally beating yourself up. Trust me...I have slipped more than once. I can eat pizza. I just pick the smallest slice. I have and do eat chocolate only if its in the house(which I have to stop doing..(period) Guilt makes me eat more junk and more crap. That is why we are here. To help you through this. I understand how you feel right now because I am going through it. Someone suggested that we start from the beginning. Do the 2 weeks of liquids, then stage 2 then ease into stage 3 etc etc etc....I am seriously thinking of doing that. As for the eating in the car. Pack snacks like peanuts or beef jerky or stuff like that. I can't tell you how beef jerky had saved me some days. That way instead of eating a candy bar you'll have a protein bar instead. You'll get your protein in as well as eat something good for you. But please stop beating yourself up....That won't help. BTDT. Do you do protein shakes?? Try that. That will fill you up in between. I am thinking of suggestions cuz I am not clear on exactly what you eat every day. But I think I am going to start from day one and ease myself back to where I am now. Drink water, water,water too. That will also aide in wl. Good Luck and I do hope I have helped you in some way. We're here to support...not blast. Hang in there. You'll be OK. Erin

Hi Cherilyn, Sandy and Erin gave you good advice. It is true that the negativity towards ourselves makes things worse instead of better. What we need is to have a repertoire of convenient, good food choices. Especially while on the run. I'm going to start a new post on this topic to get the ideas flowing to help all of us. We all can learn from each other. That's the beauty of a site like this. Don't lose faith in yourself. You can regroup and do this. Love, Sue

Cherilyn (what a pretty name), don't feel bad, I can eat almost anything...especially sugar! Fortunately my pouch will not let me eat much but I do eat it. And if its in the house... its gonna get eaten! I have such a weird schedule, I work night shift 4 nights/week... 2 of those are 12 hour shifts, 2 are 8 hour shifts and there is NO schedule!!! I find on my days off, esp. in the evening... I want to graze and snack all the time, I don't feel full and I just keep hunting for something. Then I get pissed when the scales don't move! DUH!!!! So honey, I feel your pain. I start each and every day new... some days I do really well, others... not so much but the important thing is I try. So quit beating yourself up... you did enough of that pre-op and it didn't do anything but make you feel worse about yourself. I liked that idea of starting from the beginning again... I think I might give that a whirl... Huggles to you sweetie, don't beat yourself up... we are all in the same boat!(some can handle those paddles better than others!) Wanda

Cherilyn, Thanks for you honest post. I agree with everyone especially do not be negative with your self. You have done really well Congratulations. Remember this is not a diet but a life style. So if you eat something that isn't a good choice just change to another choice next time. Water loading will help hunger and is still a good practice even 8 months out. I carry a cooler in the back seat. Each morning I put Ice packs and drinks, cheese or grapes or crackers. It really only takes me a min. to through the stuff in the little cooler. Best wishes you are doing it Dollie-girl

OMG I can not express in words how grateful I am for all of your support and ideas. I am currently drinking water. I think I have been really stressed lately and I was worrying about all the food stuff too...so every bad choice just seemed magnified. I work full time and go to school part time and have had major computer problems lately (viruses and spyware) and don't really need them as I have major assignments due et****ep watching very inspirational Oprah's which have showed of late and think that intead of having a 500ml bottle of water on my desk I'll have a litre one and I'm going to park by the parking exit at work (in the parking lot) instead of close to the (door) entrance. I'm going to do it step by step and one day at a time and get there!!! Thank you so much. Since it is possible to gain back the weight (not that that is going to happen to us! As we will fully stay aware!) I was just wondering how that is physically possible. Is there something I'm missing. As they say you can't eat sweets (that's not exactly 100% for me anyways). So I was just wondering if we (gastric bypass patients) were cut and made a tiny pouch - how can we possibly gain it all back?