Oooh, not a good week

Hi guys and gals! True confessions time. I gained 2 pounds since last Friday, my first gain since surgery. I'm surprised it's only 2. My downward spiral began with Passover last weekend. After cooking for days, I hosted the sedar Saturday night and I am a great cook if I must say so myself! I made delicious matzo ball soup, brisket, potatoes, charoses (chopped up apples, walnuts, sugar, cinnamon and wine, YUM!), a dense flourless chocolate torte and other wonderful desserts, the list goes on. Then of course being the Jewish mom that I am, I had tons of leftovers, even after I sent everyone home with "care packages!" So I have been feasting all week. And that has caused diahrrea and tiredness so I haven't been to the gym all week, although I have played tennis twice. I got things under control yesterday and I am back on track, weighing 166 this morning, up from 164 last Friday. The point of this post I guess is to say that I can completely understand how people lose 75 percent of their excess weight and than stop. The reason the weight loss stops is, I'm sure, because they stop trying, not because their bodies just stop losing! This week of eating has been seductive and fun. Face it, after 7 months of strict self discipline we are more than ready for a "break." And then when you have that break it's damn hard to get back on track. And then add to that the fact that everyone around me is telling me how "skinny" I am. It would be easy to buy into that and just accept staying in the mid 160's for the rest of my life. I feel great, I look "normal" and eating is FUN! But, I refuse to fall victim to this. I WILL reach 136 and have a "normal" BMI. I'm going to the gym today even though I REALLY don't feel like it. This surgery was a tool that I chose and I need to maximize my efforts while the tool still works for me. Well, thanks for listening to me vent! And good luck, everyone have a great weekend! HUGS, Sandy P.S. This weekend will be hard, i'm going on a Brownie camping trip with my daughter's troop, in the woods, with latrines and tents, the whole 9 yards. The girls did the meal planning and will do most of the meal prep. Lots of carbs! I'm bringing food for myself in a cooler. It'll be a challenge!

Sandy, I am right there with you. Within the past month or so I have been up and down (2-5 lbs) with my weight. Mostly b/c we were traveling and I had a lot to drink. Anyhow, once we got back from our trips I realized I had to stick the plan to make my "tool" work. As long as I stay under 1000 cals, I just keep losing. It sucks, but I just wanted you to know I understand how you feel! Also, next Passover have me over!! My step mom is Jewish, but we haven't done it with them in years since we live far away now. I could really chow down on some latkes or kugel...mmmm...carbs!!! Good luck on the girlscout trip. It's so awesome that you are going. I hold the memories of the stuff like that my mom did with me so dear to my heart. Have fun!! -KT Sidenote: My doc told me 1 ounce of alcohol slows the metabolism down for up to two weeks...so watch out gang!

Katie - Thanks so much for the support, it helps ALOT! I agree, travelling is a challenge. I went to a wedding in NJ weekend before last and did just OK foodwise, didn't gain but didn't lose either. And I drank ALOT . . . I was a very BAD girl, I drank white russians, oh my gosh, they were too delicious for words. I rationalized that at least I was getting my Calcium and Vitamin D, LOL!!! So I was lucky not to gain that weekend! You sound determined and have done so well so far, keep going girl! We will reach our goals! And I would love to have you and your family for Passover next year, seriously! I think it's April 12, 2006, or thereabouts. If you can come to Gaithersburg, Maryland, you are welcome to join us! And I will issue that invitation to anyone on this board: Any of my 9/04 weight loss buddies are welcome to come for Passover next April. It's during our school system's spring break, probably yours too, so you can combine it with a trip to DC to see the Cherry Blossoms and Smithsonian Museums, etc. I'll rent a hall if I have to! It's considered a "mitzvah" (good deed) to have new friends at the sedar table! Thanks for your sweet words about the camping trip! It's supposed to rain all weekend so I'm hoping my daughter will someday think back and appreciate her mom taking her and her friends to the latrine with the spiders and snakes at 2 am in the pouring rain, HAHA! Actually I'm thinking of imposing a rule for my group of girls, NO LIQUIDS AFTER 4 pm! Would that be child abuse??? Katie, thanks again for your support, it's comforting to know I am not alone! Hugs, Sandy 268/164/166/136

I'm not Jewish but my your passover meal sounded absolutely scrumptious... I hate to cook so I automatically admire anyone that can and does!!! You let us know when and where and I'll clear my calendar!!! (I'm fairly close to you as it is!) Now, quit beating yourself up over that 2 # gain... I think its our time frame... I was on a plateu for 7 weeks and I lost and regained the same friggin' 3 pounds that entire time... I could be at goal by now if it had been a consistent loss. But nooooooooo.... my body had to play games with my warped little head.... then BOOM dropped 5 pounds in 3 days... then back up 2 pounds... no cheating with carbs either... although that is a demon I have to fight every single day! Unfortunately, I don't dump. Dag nab it!!! I use my pouch as a tool and I refuse to deprive myself ... i eat making better choices now. If I want a choco chip cookie... I eat ONE... not the whole sleeve... (did you notice how the nabisco stocked dipped in sept and oct.... yep, that was me! hehehe) Anyway, use your tool... and enjoy your life... we can do both at the same time! have fun with your girls in the rain... you might want to find a place close to a Holiday Inn... just in case! Take pics... And I love the idea of no fluids after 4 pm... and no it would be no more child abuse than making you get up at 2 am would be elder abuse... huggles wanda

I just wanted to note to you that in the last couple of weeks I have drank some rum and it was way more then on ounce before I was done! Anyway I amglad you mentioned that in the post about what your doc said because I have been going up and down 2-5 lbs the last couple of weeks as well. I really dont eat much that I shouldnt so that makes me feel better! Love Amybee PS I hope you had fun drinking when you were out of town! I am going to Florida end of this month and knowing that about the alcohol I believe that I will still be tipping a glass back anyway down there!