Hi everyone!

Its been ages since I have been here. Trying to catch up on posts but I doubt I'll ever catch up. LOL..I have been away for such a long time. This is Erin, if anyone remembers me. Well, my starting weight was 241 lbs and as my weight currently right now, I am 151.5 lbs. I lost 90lbs...just 10 more and I'll be in the BIG LOSER CLUB....I just got so off track and felt terrible about myself. Still trying to work out those issues. But I missed this board so much. So voila....here I am again. I need support. I guess I thought I could do this alone. Well, its lonely out there especially when people who never had the surgery cannot possibly understand. I went from a size 24 to a size 10. Actually, I think I am ready to move down to a size 8. But even though I have lost weight and pants size, I still look in the mirror and see that fat girl looking back. Trying to accept compliments makes me blush and I feel uneasy. Why? I should get more confidence. It should make me feel good. Maybe I'm just weird. ROFL.... I actually had someone at work tell me that I was perfect and not to lose any more weight. Where do they see this??? I still see the fat girl at 241 lbs. My mom who hadn't seen me since Christmas, back when I was 190lbs said to me "You are not becoming anorexic are you?" I said "No mom. My doctors would never allow that to happen and neither would I." She didn't mean it to sound mean and I didn't take it that way. But I just don't see where they see me as thin. Being fat all my life and never thin or pretty or attractive, I just don't see. Yes, I am sounding like a broken record. I just wanted to say "HELLO" to all of us Septemberites and hopefully all of our surgeries went off without any major problems. CONGRATS on all of your sucesses. I am so proud of you all. But I am back again and ready to be there for you all again. BIG HUGS & HELLOS! Erin

Heck yah I remember you. We all started out in the forum at the same time. You, me and Louisa. I am so glad to know how well u are doing with everything. I have lost 153 so far and am on a stall for now but still hanging in there. Just keep trying harder. Stay in touch with us on the forum here and keep us informed on things. I missed ya! Take care! Doreen

Of course we remember you! I am glad you are back. We have so many issues the same. Outsiders don't really understand I don't think. They tell me I don't need to lose any more also. I am still obese by BMI standards. I want 40 more lbs. I hate those comments. I think the brain needs to catch up with the weight loss. I just can't beleive it is really me in the pictures I see. I love it though. I just smile and say thank you when someone compliments me. However my body changed but not my mind or personality and I feel like some of my friends don;t know how to relate to me and it really frustrates me. So you are not alone my friend. This is the place you will get support!

Hey Erin Good to see ya back!! Congrats on your 90 pounds!!! You go girl!! I understand what you mean. I'm @ 190ish (that time of the month) right now and everyone is telling me how good I look and how I should stop where I'm at. But this is more of a personal goal to myself to be @ 180. Yeah it's only 10 lbs, but dammit I want them gone!! Have you noticed that since you lost weight, your body is different than it was before you got fat? I'm weigh less than when I graduated from high school, but my gut wasn't this big and I can't fit some of the clothes I had back then. GO FIGURE!! Well anyway, try to think positively, you've given yourself an awesome gift!! You are fantastic!! UGLY has become my favorite word because I made it work for me. It means: U. Gotta. Love. Yourself!!! I wish you, and that beautiful butterfly that's inside of you waiting to get out, continued success!! ~Jae 275-190-180

Wow! Jenelle you did give ugly a much better meaning. I love that!! Thanks ladies! Has anyone heard for Wesie? I was thinking of her lately and wondering how she was doing. Wesie! If you are out there please post.... I didn't recognize you ladies. You ladies look great!! I need you all so much and I cannot do this without you either. Its frustrating too, when people say you shouldn't lose more. I do want to say "Listen, you don't know what I need to do". "Outsiders" just don't get it. We will get to our goals and overcome any obstacles. We will stick together and get through it. I feel like I just came home again. J Goldinger! Where the heck are you girlfriend?! Erin

Welcome back Erin! You are doing great! We are about a pound or two apart, but you've lost more than I have. I was wondering how Doreen and J Goldinger and Weezie were too, I'm glad you got a couple of them to check in at least! As far as your question about exercising at home, I would agree with the others about a good dvd or two, walking and the big exercise ball. I use the ball even at the gym and you can look online and find many different exercises to do with it. It is fun and it builds core strength, which makes us burn more calories even while at rest. Stick around this time, we want you to hang out with us more often and share your insight. I am on here pretty much every day (I'm sure some would say too much) but this board helps me out immeasurably. Love, Sue