Tennis Anyone?!
As some of you might recall, a girlfriend and I signed up for semi-private lessons with a local pro. Yesterday was our first lesson and I was so ridiculously excited!!! The lesson went GREAT. So of course we had to rush over to Sports Authority last night to buy "tennis" shoes, which our instructor said were important for ankle support, and she told me my grip size and I "had" to buy a racket!!! It's a Head titanium and you should've seen my face when I found out it came with a carrying case! I was like a little kid getting a great toy! I told my girlfriend to call me "Chrissie!" (AKA Chris Evert for those of you too young to remember her, haha!) And I'll probably carry the racket over my shoulder to the bus stop everyday . . . just kidding, that would be over the top!
I feel like this is another step toward a new IDENTITY. Do you guys know what I mean? I'm no longer going to be the fat mom. I'm molding myself into a new person that I would admire. A cute active slim (well, someday soon!) mom who works out 6 days a week and plays tennis. And another girlfriend said something to me that really hit home, that the more I mold myself into that person, the more likely it will be a self fulfilling prophecy. And the less likely it is that I will slip up and gain weight ever again. AND, here's another thing to think about as we are "reinventing" ourselves. The more we project this new identity to others, THE WORLD WILL SEE US DIFFERENTLY AND TREAT US DIFFERENTLY! Which of course, will further reinforce our new positive attitudes and behaviors!
OK, didn't mean to get philosophical so early in the morning, just wanted to share some positive thoughts! Hugs, Sandy
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Sandy,
I loved your philosophising, (even if i can't spell that word) and your excitement is contagious. I understand exactly how you feel. I'm even a bit self conscious about it though, as if someone is going to judge me for suddenly being into exercise or being more into cute clothes and jewelry. I'm sure there are some that may, but overall I know that most people are happy for me. It's funny how this whole process spills over into other areas besides weight. It IS like reinventing ourselves and for me it is a second chance at life. All my life I heard the "you have such a pretty face" remarks, but the unspoken portion of that remark is "too bad it's ruined because you're fat" Every party I attended, every time I had to meet people, I was preoccupied with embarressment about what I was wearing, or how I looked because I couldn't project the person I was inside, or my real taste in clothes, etc. It is so cool to have this opportunity to reinvent ourselves and get to live life without the limitations of being obese. It still feels like a dream to me. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on all this and making us think. And you make tennis sound really fun! I just may look into that one of these days! By the way, woman... I noticed you are awfully close to the century club!!!! This week maybe??????? 
Love,
Sue
I loved your philosophising, (even if i can't spell that word) and your excitement is contagious. I understand exactly how you feel. I'm even a bit self conscious about it though, as if someone is going to judge me for suddenly being into exercise or being more into cute clothes and jewelry. I'm sure there are some that may, but overall I know that most people are happy for me. It's funny how this whole process spills over into other areas besides weight. It IS like reinventing ourselves and for me it is a second chance at life. All my life I heard the "you have such a pretty face" remarks, but the unspoken portion of that remark is "too bad it's ruined because you're fat" Every party I attended, every time I had to meet people, I was preoccupied with embarressment about what I was wearing, or how I looked because I couldn't project the person I was inside, or my real taste in clothes, etc. It is so cool to have this opportunity to reinvent ourselves and get to live life without the limitations of being obese. It still feels like a dream to me. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on all this and making us think. And you make tennis sound really fun! I just may look into that one of these days! By the way, woman... I noticed you are awfully close to the century club!!!! This week maybe???????
Love,
Sue Sue - I was nodding my head through your entire post! I get it, probably we all do! Well, everyone was right, you DO have a beautiful face and you clearly have a beautiful spirit to match it! And now you will have that beautiful body as well! But I don't think the old habits and thoughts will go away overnight. I still look at a table or booth in a restaurant and for a split second have a stab of fear about whether I'm going to fit. But then I have a surge of pleasure when I slide in effortlessly.
I think the more positive experiences we have, the more we will become accustomed to our new selves and become comfortable in our our own skins, so to speak.
Thanks for all your support! (And yes, I am ONE HALF POUND away from the Century Club, I'm hoping for tomorrow. This new thing of mine about not eating after 8 pm is really helping big time! Food was my comfort/reward and evening eating has always been a problem for me, sort of like a reward for getting through the day successfully and keeping all my balls in the air. I'm gonna try like crazy to stick to this 8 pm cutoff. Thanks again! Hugs, Sandy
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