The "honeymoon" is definitely over . . .
Had my 6-month check up on Tuesday and I was on such a high. The doctor was so pleased and full of compliments, what a boost. Sometime between then and now my mood has sunk though. I have had such great success, 93 pounds in 6 months, and most importantly I have felt GREAT, and have a wonderful support system from friends, family and co-workers.
Up til now, I could "cheat" a little (we're talking a pretzel or two) and still lose! Not anymore. I have been stuck at 175 for several weeks now. I wish I could say it's a plateau but it's not. I have eaten way too many girl scout cookies and other poor choices. I don't want to sink into my former bad habits and I am scaring myself! I only have 39 more pounds to reach the "normal" BMI range, what is wrong with me? Six months ago I would've killed to only have 39 pounds to lose! This tool is a gift and I am taking it for granted and wasting time. I know my appetite will come back and I desperately want to have lost all my excess weight by then. Why do we sabotage ourselves this way?
The reality is that my doctor wants me on 800 calories a day til I lose the rest of my weight. I need to buckle down and really make this happen. I am worth it! But I am feeling a little depression sink in. I have really lost the comfort of my fickle friend: food! I'm not concerned about not being able to lose all my weight, rather, I'm concerned about my self-discipline.
On the upside, I am exercising hard 5-6 days a week and this should help my little depression. It is just finally sinking in I guess that this is not a "diet" this is the rest of my life. And I'm thinking about what happens when we all reach our goals. We can't return to our former habits because we are "done" dieting. I'm concerned about maintenance but I'll go back to the nutritionist for help. Well, thanks for listening, just needed to whine a little. I'm usually such a happy person and I'm having a low week. Hugs, Sandy
Tema, Pam and Joan - Thank you for the support and encouraging words, I needed it! And I do feel better tonight. I had a good day today and kept things under control. This board is the best! And Joan, your advice about avoiding the sugar is so on target. I don't know why I didn't think of that myself. It definitely causes cravings. Pam, I hope you're reading this too, no more M&M's for us, DEAL? Thanks again, Hugs, Sandy
I'm going through the same thing Sandy. I am still losing pretty steadily (about 2 lbs. per week) but yesterday I ate an entire bag of M&M's!!! That is the first time I have done that, and it scares the heck out of me!! I soooooooooo don't want to fall back into old habits, but I can see myself slipping a little. It REALLY bothers me, because this surgery is my LAST hope!! If I can't do it with this, I'll never be able to do it!! I think I need to make an appointment to talk with the Psych doctor to find out why I am sabotaging myself this way. I really haven't been toooo impressed with the Psych doctor so far, but... I think I do need some help! Probably the only reason I am NOT depressed is that I was already on anti-depressants when I had surgery. I wouldn't give those up for anything!! lol I hope that we both find some answers before it is too late!!! Thanks for being honest.
Pam
OOOOOHHHH my God!! I just posted somewhere that I was feeling like I was losing my mind and thought it was neuropathy - and was also munching - just cheerios/cashews just before dinner - but I feeling I was stuffing myself - and the worse was the feeling of losing control. I concur with Pam about the therapist - Im only 3 days from my 6th month - and I had been doing soo well...and even though i've maintained my eating quite a bit i am/was slacking a bit on the exercise and not losing anything - and felt like i was losing control of my sanity though. I'm glad I'm not alone!! I can't believe this is happening..Crossing my fingers we can get past this!!!
I hear ya Sandy... I have my ups and downs with all this too. Your post helped me tonight because I too have been feeling like I've been lax about a few things lately. I am scared I am stretching my pouch and I know I am eating more calories than I should be. I pop way too many "tastes" of things into my mouth. Some days I am so worried and other days I feel ok about everything. It sounds like you are working really hard and doing really well. Try not to be too hard on yourself. I agree we need to maximize this time and learn the best habits possible to have the best results long term. Thank you for sharing about this. I'm sorry you've been a bit low this week, but know that many of us are experiencing this and we understand. (((hugs)))) we can do it!
Love,
Sue
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