Update

Hi everybody It's me again....lol! First off I would like to thank everyone that responded to my last post. I really appreciate the advice and the concern. Next to update ya'll....I bought my first size 12 jeans yesterday and wore them for the first time today. They are very comfortable. I thought I would be cutting of circulation and be miserable ( all day meeting) but instead I was very comfortable and everybody told me how great I look. it was difinitely a great weight loss moment. It seems like all the sudden the inches are coming off. I still see the old me in the mirror but everyone else is just amazed. Things are still not good with my marriage. Matter of fact he stayed out from 10 am yesterday till 7am this morning (part of that was work: about 7 hrs of it) but 14 hrs was ...so needless to say I'm pretty upset and can not bring myself to even talk to him. I came home from my meeting tonight and him and the kids are gone. I'm sure he will be back shortly only because he has the kids with him (one 8 yr old girl and one 22 month old boy ) I so wished that we could grow old together but he is 40 yrs old and not about to change. At this point I really don't know what to do. My heart says " stay together..you love him with all your heart" and my head says " are you stupid?...havent you been through enough yrs of hoping and praying and hanging on...you deserve better!!" Ugh....I hate him for making me make this kind of decision! Well enough from me.....I am extremly excited about the weight loss and my ever changing sizes...i just wish my life was going as good I hope that all of your lives are great and the journey we are all on together is going even better! Take care my sept buddies, Hugs, Rebecca 238/176/138 5'6