I am so mad at myself

For the past two days I have ate all day, I don't know what is wrong with me. I started back to work and for some reason I started eating and don't know why, I am afraid that I may stretch my pouch. I have to stop this and don't know why I am feeling hungry all the time. I don't know what the problem is.

Are you drinking your water. This is probably the psychological hunger everyone warned us about. Drink your water or another liquid. Do popcicles(sf) if you can. Heck I'm no expert, but this works for me. Are you going to regular support group meetings? If not then you should find one. This should help you to air out you thoughts and emotions and hopefully help you to identify what is REALLY going on. I will keep you in my prayers Agape: Andrea J.

UR not alone... the last2 days i have been eatin like nothing else but today i put my foot down i will have a shake for breakfast and lunch and somethign small for dinner and a shake before bed.... i am not goin to messin up my losin streak Manda ~60 lbs 09-09-04

Manda you are right, today I will get back on track. I am in control not my emotions. That is what got me to the weight I was, not being in control. I am stronger than that and I have the tool to help me. Thank you for your reply.

I have been the same way. . .but I'm on my period. I always eat more at that time of the month. I have tried not to stress about it b/c what I am eating even on my hungry days is still a FRACTION of what I ate post op! Not to mention the fact that I am not having junk food or sugary foods. Leslie

Vickie, You are not alone! I went back to work last week, I have piles of work to catch up on and my co-worker has been out all week and I have to take care of her desk and MINE too! I have been eating every few hours. I can eat a Whole bowl of oatmeal for breakfast and in two hours will eat something else. I have felt like such a failure this last week. I have lost 4lbs in the last two week! I have been eating in secret. Everyone thinks I am doing such a great job. But I know that I have been bad and feel very guilty! At home I am bored. Food was my best friend, not I feel alone. I am trying to find things to fill my time, but have not come up with anything so far. You might me stressed like I am. I have been forcing myself to walk and drink more water. I think I stretched my pouch too. Wishing you the best. Keep drinking tha****er! This week will be better for both of us!!! Hugs..

i go through these fazes about every 10 days i think its just a response our bodies have and it telling us we are in need of something!!!

Hi Vickie Congrats on going back to work! This is something that I thought about when reading your post: You are reacting normally to 'old haunts'. Going back to work is like going back to your old life.......but now you have a new life with WLS, i.e. eating habits, drinking habits, changing both physically and mentally/emotionally, etc. You will do just fine once you recognize that you just started overeating because you were in an old situation. You will now need to retrain yourself to be at work with the new WLS you!!! This is going to happen to all of us. The first time we visit our childhood homes/our parents, go with friends to their house, a familiar place, etc. We may trigger the old memories to how we use to eat. I saw this in a few places and it sure is powerful! I had to morn not eating the 'old' way with my siblings/family and also another time with my husband. Make sense? So, forgive yourself and recognize that you still have that memory chip of eating eating eating and now you don't need to/should not do so for your health. You can get through this! One day at a time. I hope I worded this right. To me, this is so normal....how you take it from here though determines your true successes. Once we are aware of our triggers, we can tell ourselves it is okay and we no longer need to eat like that. GOOD LUCK! Plus, I am sure there is a part of you that had stress getting back to work. Whether we like our jobs or not, it is stressful. Love, Michelle

Thanks Michelle, I think you are right. At work I use to eat all the time because it is very stressful. I work in a mental hospital and it can be stressful at times. I work with drug and alcohol addicts and I realized that food is addictive to, the patients turn to drugs and alcohol for comfort and I turned to food. I am trying to change my way of dealing with stress by changeing what I do to deal with it, before I would go and eat a piece of pie when I got really stressed out, now I walk. We have a breakroom that always has food in it and I would run to it when I got upset, now I avoid that room. I turn to the gym, weight loss isn't just about eating it is a mental game. We need to understand what we are missing in life that made us turn to food. Over eating is very self destructive, it is no different than drugs or alcohol or self mutalation. I know my second week I felt deprived because I couldn't eat a lot of food and then I realized that I didn't have to have a lot of food to be satisified, that a little went a long way. Now I feel good about the amount of food I eat. I take my time and am satisified when I am done. As a matter of fact I feel better because I don't have that guilt or that stuffed feeling. I finally feel like I am in control. This is a battle that we will face every day so we don't go back to old habits. Good luck, we can do it. Starting weight: 227 Today :192 Vickie